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Community Conversation => Transsexual talk => Male to female transsexual talk (MTF) => Topic started by: Damara on April 09, 2015, 09:11:13 AM

Title: Waiting IS hard..
Post by: Damara on April 09, 2015, 09:11:13 AM
I know this is pretty much true for a lot of stuff in life, but I thought I could be rational. Nope! Not yet! Ive been hrt for 9 days and I'm already feeling so impatient.. Relieved but impatient! Haha! Darn it! I'm also doing another thing I told myself I wouldn't do.. Constantly checking my breasts and other fatty areas for any microscopic change.. Which I know can't have happened yet, so why am I being so crazy?! Haha! Eep! Anyway just thought I'd express this silliness!
Title: Re: Waiting IS hard..
Post by: LizMarie on April 09, 2015, 09:56:47 AM
You're on the road, dear, and you want to arrive at the destination. But I'll say this again, just like I did on Facebook, be sure to stop and smell the roses. Enjoy the journey itself. You're going to discover things about yourself, both good and bad, and have the opportunity to refine the good and fix the bad.

I know exactly how you feel. Imagine how I feel today, 12 days from FFS? I'm being a little bit irrational and my friends are laughing at me (in a very positive and good way) and the excitement of approaching this milestone is something I don't want to forget.

So... enjoy the trip! You'll get to the destination plenty soon enough but the journey itself has lessons and joys of its own. Enjoy them. :)
Title: Re: Waiting IS hard..
Post by: Mariah on April 10, 2015, 07:27:52 PM
I know waiting is a pain even I have more waiting to do, but it's worth it so be patient you will love the changes as they happen. Hugs
Mariah
Title: Re: Waiting IS hard..
Post by: iKate on April 10, 2015, 07:33:22 PM
Saw this at the academy tonight. Thought it was relevant.

It's not going to happen overnight and certainly not by itself. You gotta get up and go.

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Title: Re: Waiting IS hard..
Post by: stephaniec on April 10, 2015, 07:43:17 PM
It's a beautiful experience . but takes a little time
Title: Re: Waiting IS hard..
Post by: Ms Grace on April 10, 2015, 07:48:22 PM
Recheck this thread in about 12 months and have a chuckle to yourself! :D
Title: Re: Waiting IS hard..
Post by: martine on April 10, 2015, 07:50:42 PM
Oh my ! I don't post often but I'm with you on this one girl ! I'm on my seventh day and do exactly the same !  I'm about to take out the ruler and the tape to measure things.  But that would just be too crazy !


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Title: Re: Waiting IS hard..
Post by: Ms Grace on April 10, 2015, 07:59:58 PM
I took weekly measurements for the first six or so weeks... don't think I've bothered since!
Title: Re: Waiting IS hard..
Post by: Lady_Oracle on April 10, 2015, 08:46:18 PM
I was so obsessed with measurements but I'm glad I kept track of them since eventually the changes come on even slower, so it can be hard to tell what's changing if you haven't kept a record of it. Every time there was a change it improved my self esteem and I knew my hrt regimen was working for me, which was really reassuring.
Title: Re: Waiting IS hard..
Post by: JoanneB on April 10, 2015, 08:46:19 PM
Quote from: Ms Grace on April 10, 2015, 07:59:58 PM
I took weekly measurements for the first six or so weeks... don't think I've bothered since!
+1

At the six week point is when your head FINALLY says Ahhhhhhhhhh

And the booze consumption drops
Title: Re: Waiting IS hard..
Post by: Rachel on April 10, 2015, 08:47:23 PM
I took a measurement last night. The time before that was 3 months ago. I am making progress but it takes time. The only reason I measured was I thought I looked larger and I confirmed what I was thinking.

Enjoy every minute :)
Title: Re: Waiting IS hard..
Post by: PhoenixGurl2016 on April 11, 2015, 01:23:53 AM
I have been taking measurements monthly, so far no real progress yet
Title: Re: Waiting IS hard..
Post by: Damara on April 11, 2015, 09:43:35 AM
Thank you all so much! I am going to try to just keep living.. :) It's funny to me, though, because I was in this headspace of "Oh, I won't feel impatient after I at least start HRT.. haha! Then after doing it . . . BAM! I want to look different NOW! Haha! But indeed, I shall happily wait.. I was considering measurements as well.. at least monthly. A friend recommended that I reserve a well fitting shirt to try on every once in a while to see if I notice changes. 
Title: Re: Waiting IS hard..
Post by: Mariah on April 11, 2015, 09:47:39 AM
We have all measured at some point I think it's been at least a month or so since I last did. The shirt method does work well to an extent.
Mariah
Quote from: Damara on April 11, 2015, 09:43:35 AM
Thank you all so much! I am going to try to just keep living.. :) It's funny to me, though, because I was in this headspace of "Oh, I won't feel impatient after I at least start HRT.. haha! Then after doing it . . . BAM! I want to look different NOW! Haha! But indeed, I shall happily wait.. I was considering measurements as well.. at least monthly. A friend recommended that I reserve a well fitting shirt to try on every once in a while to see if I notice changes.
Title: Re: Waiting IS hard..
Post by: mmmmm on April 11, 2015, 10:19:36 AM
My advice... Let your body hair (as much as you have it) grow long, or do anything else that will possibly help you with not looking in the mirror and searching for changes and going crazy because of it. It literally takes time, and nothing will drastically change before enough months passes. In the meantime, focus on things that you can do to make you feel better, and work on doing stuff that will help you with easier transition steps. Waiting, measuring, worrying and obsessing will not make you feel any better. Doing what you like to do, and working on/for transition steps (whatever that might be) will.
Title: Re: Waiting IS hard..
Post by: Sabrina on April 11, 2015, 12:45:48 PM
Patience is a virtue. It's a long trip so enjoy the ride.
Title: Re: Waiting IS hard..
Post by: Tessa James on April 11, 2015, 01:30:26 PM
Quote from: Ms Grace on April 10, 2015, 07:48:22 PM
Recheck this thread in about 12 months and have a chuckle to yourself! :D

Ha ha, too true Grace and I posted about looking for changes the next day!  I was kidding but truly impatient as well.  Damara you are now in the boob watchers club and don't we love em!
Title: Re: Waiting IS hard..
Post by: Zoetrope on April 11, 2015, 03:40:38 PM
In the words of my very charming Endo - ''Puberty is slow, so we are going slow''.
Title: Re: Waiting IS hard..
Post by: AndreaLinda on April 11, 2015, 05:06:22 PM
add diet, exercise and in 4 month, I promise you, you will be shock with the changes.
Title: Re: Waiting IS hard..
Post by: Alissa16 on April 13, 2015, 07:46:56 AM
Changes when they happen are going to sneak up on you..bout 3 months on.
Title: Re: Waiting IS hard..
Post by: iKate on April 13, 2015, 11:29:18 AM
I've realized that genetics is your biggest friend and unfortunately it is also your biggest enemy. Next to that is time. After that it is money.
Title: Re: Waiting IS hard..
Post by: Sophie Lou on April 13, 2015, 02:23:42 PM
Friday is my 3 month mark...I also stopped evaluating changes after 4-6 weeks.

I do constantly obsess over my male pattern baldness to see if there is hair re growth from
the hrt & finasteride. So far there has been new hairs growing in!

Title: Re: Waiting IS hard..
Post by: Emileeeee on April 13, 2015, 08:32:32 PM
I did the same thing and was convinced that they weren't working. Then somewhere around the 2nd or 3rd month, I suddenly noticed one of my arms felt significantly softer. The itchy feelings happened shortly after that followed by the fear that it was happening too fast. I wish I kept doing it because now I'm having a hard time trying to find a place to get back on them again.