Ok...hello all, my name is Brynn and I'm 31 years of age. I believe I have gender disphoria. I have always struggled with being the boy/man, my parents wanted me to be, or the husband my ex wife wanted me to be. I have always lived up to the masculine role they expected out of me. In fact, I did it too well. In result, for the past 18 years I've managed to push the woman inside of me back down hundreds of times. It's only these past few months when all the collective crap in my life hit the fan that she's started to find her voice. As a whisper at first, but now it's raised and close to a scream. Basically what I'm saying is that I'm still confused, and have an internal struggle going on with the man I've created for my family and the general public, and with the woman who's finally saying it's time to let go and give me a try. I'm just not entirely sure what to do.
I haven't told anyone about any of this until now. I guess I'm just looking at the moment for some sympathetic friends to chat with and help figure all this out.
Thanks for reading.
Brynn
Hi Brynn, Welcome to susan's. It's totally natural at this stage to feel that way. A good gender therapist would be a great place to start. I look forward to seeing you around the forums. Hugs and good luck
Mariah
Thanks for the welcome! I've been looking for possible therapists to go to in my area, and haven't decided on one just yet. A bit more research to do on each one I'm looking at.
Contacting and talking to them directly sometimes can also help with your research.
Mariah
Quote from: Ryn on April 11, 2015, 06:55:20 AM
Thanks for the welcome! I've been looking for possible therapists to go to in my area, and haven't decided on one just yet. A bit more research to do on each one I'm looking at.
I never considered that. Think I might plan to do so next week.
There are also resources online that will help to let you know if they are a gender therapist and if they are networked with the insurance you have.
Mariah
Quote from: Ryn on April 11, 2015, 06:59:34 AM
I never considered that. Think I might plan to do so next week.
Welcome to Susan's
A gender therapist is a great first start to investigate and process your feelings.
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I would look into a gender therapist to help you find your way.
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Hi Brynn :icon_wave:
Welcome to Susan's :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
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V M
Hi Brynn, welcome to Susan's Place! I'm a Bostonian. You're going to make lots of friends here on the site. See you around!
Hugs, Devlyn
Thanks for the warm welcome and information everyone!! I really appreciate it. I've been looking through a lot of threads and articles, and it's really helping me figure this all out.