After a night of feeling like crap and wanting to curl up in a ball and cry at work, I got home and changed, and as I did I looked in the mirror and realized I'm not happy with my body and happier when I see a girl looking back in the mirror. Before I thought that because I had worries/concerns about transitioning that it meant that I didn't want to transition but now I see that's not true. And I'm not out to everyone yet, but I've decided I'm going to tell my parents this week ( I would have already, but I came down with the flu or possibly food poisoning ) and I'm going to take the steps to living as Madeline.
Madeline, I know how disheartening is to look in the mirror and see something that is opposite to your authentic self in the mirror. Certainly your fears and worries are something you want to take up with a therapist and wish you the best of luck in regards to telling your parents. Hugs
Mariah
Know that everyone here is behind you. Regardless of their reaction, you will probably feel better having taken the first step towards bringing your body up to speed with your true gender.
sam1234
I am sending positive thoughts your way, good luck.
All the best Madeline! :)
Good luck! Also I really like your name! If I had a daughter I'd have named her Madeline (or Nikita) :)