I have finally decided to break my silence after about eight months of lurking. My story is pretty standard for a middle aged MTF. Right now I am pre everything, except for one very telling realization. After ten years of panic attacks and being on beta blockers and tranquilizers, I can no longer claim to be a guy who has a little "thing" for womens' bikinis and short shorts and whatnot.
I learned that a little cross dressing lowered my blood pressure down to 110/70, and I was able to cut my beta blocker dose in half. Oh, and coming out to my wife and us watching the Bruce Jenner special helped a lot, too.
So yeah, I think I need to see a gender therapist in the near future.
Anyway, here I am. Hi, hello, and very happy to be here.
Carly
Hi CarlyMcx, welcome to Susans. It's wonderful to hear that you were able to come out to your wife. Yes, a therapist is often a wonderful help during our transition journey's. I look forward to seeing you around the site. Good luck and Hugs.
Mariah
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Hi Carly :icon_wave:
Welcome to Susan's :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
Hugs
V M
Welcome Carly! Your blood pressure drop demonstrates just how stressful holding years of being who you aren't in. It must have come to somewhat of a surprise to you even though you felt less stressed.
Good luck in finding a therapist who has worked with transgenders. Fortunately, they are more readily available now then they used to be.
sam1234
Hi Carly, Welcome to Susan's... :icon_wave:
Look forward to seeing you around the forums...
Nice BP too
L Katy :-*
Hi there,
I am in my mid 30s, but I am in a similar position. I realised I couldn't keep fighting this and hoping it would go away, as it obviously isn't.
I've been taking small steps. Going this forum has been a great help and there are some wonderful girls on here with plenty of wisdom and helpful advice. Joining made me realise that I wasn't alone in suffering this dysphoria.
I am starting with a psych next week and hopefully hrt soon.