I won't go into details, but things are happening in my life that should make me happy, that I should be enjoying, but because I constantly doubt myself and my looks and overthink everything in a negative way, I'm constantly fighting low self esteem and bouts of depression.
I want to live in the moment and have fun, and make the most of the good things that are coming my way, but my mind manages to twist everything to be Bad Thing. For instance, if a friendship starts, I'm waiting for that person to find out what I'm really like and leave. This is all before I even get started on my body issues that stop me relaxing in any public situation.
Anyone been through this? And if so how did you get out of it?
You could try to concentrate on the positive things... be grateful for them and enjoy them...
and you could mentally replace pictures to a positive outcome...
you could try to consciously calm down... breathing even and steady...
nutrition could play a role... you could try to avoid high sugar drinks, which might give a spike and a low later...
hugs
Dialectical Behavioral Therapy
http://behavioraltech.org/resources/whatisdbt.cfm
good method developed by a PH.D. Who is known for her work in this field and developed the program hospitals use to prevent suicide and negative thoughts. it's based on principles of Buddha