First off I have posted a introduction already awhile back but decided to post another one because I wanted to get people's input and views.
I feel deep down inside that I am most definitely transgender and that I should be a woman and not a man. I realized this fully within the last year or so but I have always known deep down inside. In a perfect world I would live full time as a woman and leave everything about being a man in the past but it's not that easy for me.
I have been working seasonal jobs for the last five years and work at or outside national parks in the summer and ski resorts in the winter. I usually end up having a roommate who shares a room with me so being myself truly is not an option without judgemental views and comments from all the people that I work with.
I would love to go to bed in panties and a bra but I don't have that option to do so without being called a freak. I also enjoy the jobs and my hobbies on the side too much to give this lifestyle up. I also think to myself will I be that much happier if I really do end up becoming a woman. I mean I have constant fantasies where I have breasts and have had surgery to have a vagina and then I wake up to reality and I am so sad that I still am a guy.
I think being a woman would be amazing. I would love to take hormones and eventually have breasts and a more feminine body and qualities as well.
The only way to avoid people judging you is to run off and start a new life. Because I was forced to take a new job at transition, I wasn't judged at work but family did and I needed to win them over. For the most part if people understand what you are going through they don't call you names. I have found people to be pretty good to me even when I wasn't passing. As for the roommate, if your work is for the federal government, they will make accommodations. Many private companies will as well if you are a hard worker and you approach them correctly. All of us had fears about the transition process but very few happened to us. By the way, a nightie or oversized T shirt with optional panties is far more comfortable. After a full day of wearing a bra, you are ready to sing Born Free.