This is not all that trans related, although, it roots from TG/LGBT. I am awkwardly socially when it comes to my belongings, and my personal stuff... I dont like people looking over my shoulder when Im on the internet, talking 1 on 1 . . I grew up with fear/paranoa when it comes to revealing myself... all my life
I had like an inner panic attack when my manager was looking at my books, I said, "Did you want one of them?". It was ackward... and he walk out politely in less than 3 minutes because he came for a cd... but was like "ill give you thumbdrive tomorrow". I dont care but I think hes weirded out by me... and I feel bad like what is wrong with me. All on my shelf,; i had star trek, medical stuff and a few romances... ((actually i dont read these books but collect them... i didnt want him in my room, but he follow anyways)).
Im like why... why do i come across so ackward... only time im normal is when im talking indirectly or its very light conversation.... or im on a date.
Well I'd say its some kind of trained response... they might remind you of an event where you felt watched.
by the way many people don't exceedingly like being watched...
You might simply try to relax, and listen to what you feel within... not so much focus on the other person...
and you might try to relax, and not react with a trained response... like defense... just seeing it neutral...
I'd say its some kind of balance... remaining healthy barriers while not being too unfriendly...
it can be learned, and knowing should help...
hugs