Hi I am 18 years old biological male, I am a transgender woman, I am also suffering from Body Dysmorphic Disorder, It is really hard but also Gender Dystopia + BDD is very very hard I have never understood people that commit suicide but now I understand , It is too much I feel like I cant do this anymore, discrimination , hate , finding job, feeling in wrong body, cant stop thinking about my big head , ugly nose , facial asymmetries whenever I find I solution a new problem come, It just doesn't stop I don't want to waste my life by thinking these stuff , I want to be like other teenagers I want to have fun but I cant be happy If I don't find a solution to my problems I really want to transition but I have to think about the results what if they dont let me to go to university? What if they dont give me a job? And what if I there is noone to love me? I feel strong but It is too much I want to stop I want to give up on transition because I have to I am really scaring and depressed I spend my day by sleeping mostly I wish I could reset my life or start a new life ..
Quote from: fluttershy1617 on July 01, 2015, 10:51:44 AM
Hi I am 18 years old biological male, I am a transgender woman, I am also suffering from Body Dysmorphic Disorder, It is really hard but also Gender Dystopia + BDD is very very hard I have never understood people that commit suicide but now I understand , It is too much I feel like I cant do this anymore, discrimination , hate , finding job, feeling in wrong body, cant stop thinking about my big head , ugly nose , facial asymmetries whenever I find I solution a new problem come, It just doesn't stop I don't want to waste my life by thinking these stuff , I want to be like other teenagers I want to have fun but I cant be happy If I don't find a solution to my problems I really want to transition but I have to think about the results what if they dont let me to go to university? What if they dont give me a job? And what if I there is noone to love me? I feel strong but It is too much I want to stop I want to give up on transition because I have to I am really scaring and depressed I spend my day by sleeping mostly I wish I could reset my life or start a new life ..
hugs please don't kill yourselve it's never the answer. I can empathise with you depression is horrible and dysphoria is even worse but you can overcome this I have a big nose to and even biological women have big noses so don't worry.
Short answer, NO!
Long answer, NOOOOOOO!
Its tough, I won't lie to you. There are so many questions and too few answers before you live them. Consider this: you live at a time when transgender people are more accepted than ever. There's still a long way to go, but things are moving in the right direction.
You're young. You have time. First thing, find a good therapist. They can help guide you through so much of this. Be honest with them and yourself.
Good luck and hugs! Remember you are not alone.
Sent from my SM-G900T using Tapatalk
If you give up, you will be a quitter. It's a horrible thing to be. What people like and find attractive are people who don't quit and give up. We all are struggling with our own demons and everyday problems. You're not alone. We all have our own challenges that we need to over come because we will be a better person afterwards because we feel accomplished, we learned something, or we enriched our lives. There's a great Spartan leader named Leonidus who stood up against bullies who wanted them to surrender. 300 of his men stood up against thousands of Persians defiantly and said "Molan Labe!" (Come and take it!). Where I'm from, San Antonio, Texas, there was a fort called the Alamo where there were some people thinking about quitting and letting the Mexican General Santa Ana have it. A guy named Davy Crockett drew a line in the sand and said those who want to quit - go for it. Those who are with me, join me on this side of the line. Well, 189 of those who didn't quit, kicked 1600 Mexican soldiers butts. Imagine that... 1600 vs. 189. They went down fighting but not before kicking some ass. My point is... If you're going to do anything against great odds, give it all you've got. Don't let others beat you without giving it your all.
Now lift your head up and don't give up!