I came out to my mother last saturday (it went amazing I thought the world would end but she understood pretty much everything) and today I talked to her about the hormones. It seems we can't afford it and she was very clear when she said "forget about hormones and surgeries, you'll have those when you can afford them, but now you should focus on other things...". To be fair, I knew we couldn't afford them but honestly I wanted to be optimistic and imagined myself, in my graduation, with a full beard and everything :<.
I'm 20 years old, I study and live with my parents, I've wanted to get a job since forever but no one ever hires me. Has anyone ever been in this situation? I just can't wait anymore! I want to pass! I want to be myself! and just because of money I can't do it. I'll finish university by age 22, I obviously won't get a job immediatly, and even if I do, my field doens't pay very well (I could get a job as a teacher or work at an editorial), so I may start hormones by age 23 or 24... just thinking about it makes me want to cry...
Again, I try to be optimistic. In my country you don't need to be on hormones or have any special surgery to get your name and gender mark changed, and since it's a free tramit, I just have to pay the trip and stay at the capital. If I lose weight and work out, I think I'd have a lot of chances to really pass or pass
at least 60% of the time, right?, so with a name change and passing most of the time I guess I'd be content until hrt... of course I'd have to work really hard in order to pasinds, but if I put my mind on it, I can do it in a year or a year and half.
This is mostly a ramble but basically:
- Will it be the end of the world if I have to wait +4 years to start hormones and get any kind of surgery?
- Is it posible to pass pre-T?
In MTF the hormones help in the transition process but most of the time a good deal of work is need to produce a passable image.
In FTM the hormones work wonders. The first time I saw a FTM undergo hormones I saw a somewhat feminine looking person turn into a very handsome dude.
At your age, waiting a little extra time isn't going to make very much difference in the final results. I know you want to get things moving but without your mothers assistance, you may have to wait a few years.