lol I get these days were I feel super cute I love rolling around hugging things and giggling and poking my tongue out😝I remember a time when I would of not posted anything about me because I serverly hated myself So badly that I cut myself now I feel free but I have other problems now medical problems and it's annoying me. I got beaten up bullied forced to do stuff that I did not want or need (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1068.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fu457%2Fhalonoob1%2FMobile%2520Uploads%2F2015-07%2FE5D8D953-360B-4AA4-AA67-84C30C026ADF_zpsuvf3twim.jpg&hash=e34ada87e2c7d49fb8056d390ff31d6e670e8243) (http://s1068.photobucket.com/user/halonoob1/media/Mobile%20Uploads/2015-07/E5D8D953-360B-4AA4-AA67-84C30C026ADF_zpsuvf3twim.jpg.html)
That is so wonderful Yenneffer. Congrats. Hugs
Mariah
That's amazing progress Yenneffer... wonderful to hear that your life is coming together so well now, and yes we do see such a lovely radiant person there. xxx
All things can be fixed, press on and overcome, just as you have to date... We all love you here.
hugs
Katy
But I don't know why I feel suicidal It's on my mind all the time
I wish I could wave a magic wound have that go away, but I can't I also wish I could say that it will go away quickly, but alas I can't. Your therapist needs to know. It's important so they can help focus on that. Yenneffer, I'm always here if you need to talk and of course the helplines are phone call or click away in some cases too. Try to focus on the positive and good things happening around you. I know it's easier said than done, but please try. Hugs
Mariah
Quote from: Yenneffer on July 02, 2015, 08:07:14 AM
lol I get these days were I feel super cute I love rolling around hugging things and giggling and poking my tongue out😝I remember a time when I would of not posted anything about me because I serverly hated myself So badly that I cut myself now I feel free but I have other problems now medical problems and it's annoying me. I got beaten up bullied forced to do stuff that I did not want or need (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1068.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fu457%2Fhalonoob1%2FMobile%2520Uploads%2F2015-07%2FE5D8D953-360B-4AA4-AA67-84C30C026ADF_zpsuvf3twim.jpg&hash=e34ada87e2c7d49fb8056d390ff31d6e670e8243) (http://s1068.photobucket.com/user/halonoob1/media/Mobile%20Uploads/2015-07/E5D8D953-360B-4AA4-AA67-84C30C026ADF_zpsuvf3twim.jpg.html)
Your doing amazing sweetie, you look so pretty today.
Kiss kiss.
I've been suicidal all my life , but I always seem to see another day, kind of weird.
Quote from: stephaniec on July 02, 2015, 09:49:20 AM
I've been suicidal all my life , but I always seem to see another day, kind of weird.
what you trying to say
Quote from: Yenneffer on July 02, 2015, 09:57:25 AM
what you trying to say
all I'm saying is that the magnitude of the beauty that nature and life have to share always brings me from the abyss of hell to seeing how grateful I am to have a life and even though it can be quite challenging at times the beauty always overwhelms the despair .
Quote from: stephaniec on July 02, 2015, 09:49:20 AM
I've been suicidal all my life , but I always seem to see another day, kind of weird.
I always awkwardly chuckled when I asked older folks how they were and they said, "well, every day I'm upright/above ground is a good day..."
Being conscious of our mortality is our unique curse as human beings...
Life changing events like transition can make us hyper aware...
We just gotta hold on together, cuz that's the only way we can. Communities such as Susan's are so important. I'm grateful for the support I've received here, and the support I see others receive. This is a beautiful place ;D
Do I look like a girl
Quote from: Yenneffer on July 02, 2015, 10:50:44 AM
Do I look like a girl
Being a female is not about passing or looks. It is about being who you naturally are in your heart and soul. If passing is the only thing used to determine who you are as a person then transition is not for you. I mean, what will you have in the future when looks are gone if you do not accept you are who and what you are? As for passing. Passing is 85% confidence. Confidence in who you are and that passes you more than any makeover, clothes, etc. You need to make up your mind what you really want in the world. ARE YOU a woman or not? A negative or nervous appearance and you will not pass period even if you look like a top model. If you have to look like a top model to be a woman forget it. :)
Quote from: Jessica Merriman on July 02, 2015, 10:59:59 AM
Being a female is not about passing or looks. It is about being who you naturally are in your heart and soul. If passing is the only thing used to determine who you are as a person then transition is not for you. I mean, what will you have in the future when looks are gone if you do not accept you are who and what you are? As for passing. Passing is 85% confidence. Confidence in who you are and that passes you more than any makeover, clothes, etc. You need to make up your mind what you really want in the world. ARE YOU a woman or not? A negative or nervous appearance and you will not pass period even if you look like a top model. If you have to look like a top model to be a woman forget it. :)
thanks you have made mY decision a lot easier
Quote from: Yenneffer on July 02, 2015, 11:07:51 AM
thanks you have made mY decision a lot easier
What decision is that? :)