Hi everyone, as you can see my names Kylie and I've just recently come out to my family and close friends (Only Yesterday) about how I feel and what I want to do about it and all of them have accepted it with open arms, they suggested I find a group online to get to know others who have or are going through what I hope I will eventually get to, so here I am. Now a little about me I suppose :)
I'm 24 years old from the UK and have always felt confused about who I was, I suppose it all started when I was about 11 or 12 and started to go through puberty, I used to think not about girls so much as what it would be like to be one, every now and then I would wear some of my sister's clothes (I know but when you're young its the only real option, that or my mum's and well, that was too much for me :) ) and I would always feel so much more comfortable whilst I was dressed, I'd occasionally try a bit of make-up on aswell and it always made me feel special.
However I knew that these feelings were "wrong" as I'd hear about people like me and hear the derision in people's voices when they spoke, this led me to suppressing these feelings and trying to be "normal", this led to a vicious spiral of pain, depression and suppression until eventually I'd shut my feelings up so much that I couldn't tell anyone what was wrong as I didn't know myself, this led to losing friends and alienating myself from people who loved and cared for me.
Ever since then I've suffered from varying degrees of depression, and overtime it's waxed and waned, I could never figure out why I'd have these mood swings, in the end I started to deeply look at myself and my feelings, a few months ago now I finally embraced to myself that this is who I am, I felt like I was born in the wrong body and with the acceptance (And yes I know this sounds cliche) that Caitlyn Jenner has received and the way people have supported her, I realised that people like me weren't looked at with derision as much now, in fact alot of people respected us, this was a real turning point for me and ever since then I've been much happier in myself. As I say I've just recently come out to my family and friends, I am looking to go to the doctors soon to get myself referred and hopefully get the process started :).
Anyway thats me and my little story, I hope it wasn't too personal for some but it's all necessary to me. Hope to get to know you all soon. xxx
Welcome,
Ive seen much more personal stories here, I wouldnt worry about that.
HUGS
Hi Kylie, welcome to Susan's. No it wasn't to personal at all. It's wonderful. It's amazing how are sister's closets tend to be the prime target. I did the same thing when I was young. It's wonderful to hear those you have come out to have been supportive. It's true the climate has changed from what it was even a year ago. I look forward to seeing you around the forums. Good luck and Hugs
Mariah
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Thank you both :) I just have the biggest smile on my face these days and I do agree, I know a couple of people who did the same, its a natural thing in a way, and I'm glad its not too personal, you do never know with some places, and as you say, it is much better even to a year ago, it's amazing how quickly things can change in the world so glad to have found such accepting people and I know I'm very lucky to have such accepting family, don't know what I would have done if they hadn't :S but no need to worry about that thankfully HUGS xx
Hello from a Blackpool girl
Welcome :)
Hi Kylie :icon_wave:
Welcome to Susan's :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
Hugs
V M
Warm welcome to Susan's Kylie
That's a wonderful start to your journey getting full support from family and friends...
Best wishes for your journey and look forward to seeing you around the forum's
L Katy :-*
Hiya Kylie!! Welcome to Susan's!! I'm from the UK too (Northampton, but going to Uni in Nottingham) :) xx
Hey hugs and welcome I'm from Bournemouth UK 💖
:D Hi Kylie Welcome to the wonderful world of womanhood from Toni in Portsmouth UK
hello kylie! :)
Thanks to all for the support :) Feel so welcomed and accepted already, you're all lovely and all the well wishes have bought a tear to my eye. I've told a couple more close friends, and they've all been very accepting too, think I'll leave it at these few for the moment until I've been to the doctors and seen what he has to say, I've already been practising my mannerisms, vocals and behaviours to be more feminine, had a few dodgy looks whilst downtown today but that's their problem and not mine! So proud of myself :D xx