I don't know whether there is something wrong with me or my brain just sees things differently or what . Sometimes I really wonder why I love being trans. I just have no inclination to try to be cis . I mean not that I don't like when nobody can tell, even though I haven't been hit on yet which is a bummer, but that my be more age related I don't know. I just really love the Idea of being uniquely trans. It's like I'm getting off on being the 1o%. I know fear of harm is real, I feel that every time I'm out late at night or very early morning sitting in a sandwich place and a group of guys walks in . Believe me it scares the crap out of me , but I love being trans I just cant help it.
It's something that happens in the transition process. First you start out wanting to be CIS, then you start altering your body to match your mind. As some point, your become comfortable with your body and you start liking all of your self even though you are still pre surgical. The final step is where I am. I had my surgery so I would no longer be considered transexual because I don't want to change anything. The correct english would be I am a post surgical transexual or I was transexual indicating I have completed the transition process. I don't think about what I was most of the time because it is no longer a part of my day to day life. It is a part of my memories but I consider my self a woman with a somewhat different path in life.
I don't reject my past and am willing to share it but the transexual drive has been gone from my life for a very long time.
I guess it would be different if I wasn't pre op because I am constantly strive to get to the next level in looks and body changes.
"Why doesn't it bother me being trans?"
Because unicorns are happy creatures! :)
Hugs, Devlyn
I like being a special snowflake. I've always felt "different". Now I know why.
Like Dena says, it's part of the process. I found it didn't bother me many months ago. It surprised me at first but it makes sense. It's also why we seem to have a lot more pre transition people on the forum than post transition. The latter no doubt feel they don't need as much support since they have things sorted more or less.
Yeeii!! I like these feelings of being unique.. i feel like a piece of art C= ...
yes , I think art describes the feeling pretty well
Quote from: INgrid Alicia on August 08, 2015, 03:52:12 PM
Yeeii!! I like these feelings of being unique.. i feel like a piece of art C= ...
+1 for that! ;D
Hugs, Devlyn
You are happy being yourself.
In the end, that is a special state of being.
Hugs
Jen