Was remembering being small at counciling looking in the mirror and covering my gender with one hand saying girl and I love me then picking one more word to explain love some more boys then later I stoped and life began as an adolescent then adult still have the words in side letting it out to someone eels really made me remember being young and not having the world tell me anything still here still me soon I will be more again scared to be a girl didn't learn how so far to go one piece of my life at a time she isn't going away because I am not I love her I love me just terrified of not being a man in the world. It is all I know as an adult all I have know as a teen she stayed in for a long time looking at me and wondering if I can look like I want and not feel so broken in my girl clothes I can't see beauty I loved me once but can I do it agian