so, i just hit my 5 mo mark on hormones and electrolysis. all thats left electrolysis wise is a small goatee that is fairly easy to shave and cover up woot woot. yesterday was my hearing for my name change, id called to check and there was noone contesting it so i didnt have to attend, so within the next week or so i should be getting my court order and my id will get updated finally :D yay so happy.
in other news. have a group of coworkers ive started hanging out with. such wonderfull, open and accepting group. unfortunately they arent on my shift :( but we have the same days off so weve been hanging out pretty much every weekend playing games, talking, grabbing food, and going swimming, had to borrow something to wear the first time and was a bit uncomfortable.
which leads me to my next major breakthroughs. i finally got myself to walk through the female clothing section at work (i work at walmart) and actually buy some clothes in person rather than ordering em all online. went and bought myself a swim suit and ended up going swimming again with them last weekend in a swimsuit that actually fit properly, and it was so comfortable and easy for me to go swimming with them :O. ive always hated going swimming around other people, but it doesnt seem to matter anymore.
some other changes that have cropped up recently, that im getting used to. and kinda make hanging out with them a bit odd for me lately. my sexuality is shifting considerably. before i was only attracted to women, but now im being attracted to both, but mostly towards guys. which sucks, cause i hate guys. >.>
correction, most guys* but im finding myself attracted to one of the guys in the group ive been hanging out with. and i know that he finds me attractive as well (he's bi as well) but it sucks, cause i cant see myself in a relationship anytime soon, with all the things going on and changing. and my moving in the next month or 2. arghhhhh! ! !@#1241321@#$!@#.
mmmmm, guess those thaughts get to stay in my head and in my dreams for now @.@ not that i could do what im thinking or dreaming of anyways since i dont have the appropriate parts downstairs for that anyways.
now to figure out my next short term goal. hmmmm.