i am not going in depth about things right now, but hope you get the general idea from this (would also like to excuse for my lousy English, and some terms may, or may not be pronounced correct)
Born Male, felt like a female since the age of 5ish (between 5-6 somewhere) Now 23, and trying to get something done with it. Since my mother was not rather happy about finding me in CD. and shouted at me "are you sick, do you want to se a shrink" this has spiked a fear in me, and i saw the words shrink as a bad thing, at this time i was 10, not that i stopped CD, but the fear of beeing open about it to people got started. and was keept in the family. But never discussed with me, so i lived my life til the age of almost 16 (when i first moved out from home) in the belief that this was nothing more than a sickness. but the feelings just became stronger and stronger. Espessialy when you try to please your family and get "healthy Male interests" which never happend, just made me depressed.
Just started to talk to friends about it, and this is a try to see if i can build up some currage about it, and doing it slowly over time, but dont want to speak to my regular doctor about it, since its a known thing that they dont keep their mouths shut around here... and im not quite ready to go out with full name and that yet. i would much rather speak to a Gender therapist about it, I live in Norway. and you got to go through this and that, before you can see one. so i am thinking about moving to a "big city" to just get lost in the crowd, Just to get a doctors appointment and work out some kind of plan for it.
Sorry, im rather closed in, and i am not the best to write either. tried earlyer today, started out really simple, but got over complicated, so just had to slow down, and start over, ended up being almost a novelle, instead of an introduction lol. If you want to know something, just Ask. This is the internet, And i acctualy am lost in the crowd :P
Anyways, have a great day people!
Love from Dizzie :)
Hello and welcome :)
here are a few resources that might help:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,188309.msg1674885.html#msg1674885
You might look up some trangender groups in your area.
There should be online sites, or groups...
they might point you to a few resources that might help.
Its possible they know some good therapists. Its also possible there are therapists doing online sessions.
Here are online therapists:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php?topic=187135.0
hugs
Hi Dizzie!
I am new here myself but wanted to say welcome. The people that responded in my intro, in the last two days, made me feel so welcome and relaxed. I wanted to pass it on.
I am sorry it was so hard with your family. You will find I think, that you are not alone in what you are going through. I lurked (hung around without joining or posting) for days and there is some amazing stuff here.
Hope your journey goes well.
Majik
Hi Dizzie :icon_wave:
Welcome to Susan's :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
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Hugs
V M
i have been a frequent lurker here myself the last couple of months, And i share your Expirence Majikbrat with the friendlyness of this site. even though i have just lurked all are welcomed, and behave better than other sites i lurked at. Might be that this site have more dedicated Moderators. which i find strangly calming
Anyways thanks for the Welcome!
Will go through what V M posted. but it is probably going to take a while.
Hugs :)
(edit: Post ranks explained it)
Welcome to Susan's.
Hi Dizzie, welcome to Susan's. You did just fine. I look forward to seeing you around the forums. Good luck and Hugs
Mariah
A big warm welcome to Susan's Dizzie
We realised from a similar age, 4 for me.... and whilst I can't recall getting caught CD'ing, i do recall after I realised that I and my girl cousin had different anatomy i asked the family Dr with either mother or grandmother in situ... Why can't I be a girl... Got a response past me to my carer there with "Don't worry many boys are like this, but they all grow out of it" (paraphrased)... Well certainly did not pan out.... CD'd and varying levels of Dysphoria all my life!
Your sharing of your feelings becomes a good release valve for any overly pent up emotions... The feelings in being trapped bit is common for all of us.... Thats the bit that really determines the timelines.
Only advice reallly is approach the journey in a determined and honest way, be yourself, I was'nt for most of my life and the unravelling is very hard and emotional.
You are certainly not alone and you are amongst lots of folks with similar stories and drivers, best wishes for your journey and decisions to get there. I look forward to seeing you about the forum's
L Katy :-*