I work out of the home most of the time, and this is the first time I have been in the office in about 5 months. It is the only place where I am not out, and I am going to try to butch it up. I have one colleague who knows about me, but nobody else. Yet my male mode appearance has changed dramatically in the last year. My real hair has grown rather long which I wear in a pony tail, and my facial features have become my much finer. And of course, I have boobs now which have become rather difficult to hide. Most of all, I am aware that my personality has changed significantly. When I was last there, I was still somewhat afraid of letting all of me out, because the new me tends to be rather extroverted, and I get noticed because of it. Now I am finding myself relishing the idea of my colleagues getting a small taste of the person I am becoming. I want to hold nothing back.
Did you talk to your manager or HR about it?
Do you even plan on fully coming out at work? Is it something that you think will be acceptable there?
Good luck either way.
I haven't talked about it with anybody officially with my employer. My therapist has recommended that such notification should come from her in the form of an official letter, which she will be glad to draft at any time. The company's Chief Human Resources person is openly gay, and has emphasized that tolerance and diversity are core corporate values. But the company is headquartered in the bible belt and I am not sure everybody is on the same page.
I am a rather senior employee now at the top salary tier for my position. Additionally, I am a cancer survivor. So there are other reasons why they might want to part with me, that have little to do with job performance.
As I said, I do work out of the house the vast majority of the time, and nobody at my employer really has any contact. There is actually no reason at all why anybody should ever see me, except that it is nice on occasion for the team to get together in the same room. My work speaks for itself. I am debating the merits of coming out at work, but people are keenly aware that I have changed both in appearance and personality. I think many of them find the extent of the change more unsettling than direction it has taken. They were comfortable with the quiet number cruncher who only spoke when asked a question. This new much more social creature has them puzzled, but I don't feel like I want to hold anything back any longer.
Well good luck for tomorrow. Don't you have any wish to show them your true self? Just curious if you're alright going back to the office more masculine or would you have rather wanted to show them the new improved you? Everywhere I go I just want to show people the person I know I am. I want them to meet 'her' not 'him'. I too have changed from a introvert to an extrovert since starting HRT and I feel the new me is such a more interesting person. I really love your hair in your avatar pic. Exactly the style and color I want.