Hi :)
My name is Alexandria. I live in Orlando, Fl. I am a fitness Coach, Kickboxing/yoga/pilates instructor. So far I have lost over 85 lbs doing different workouts regiments My goals is to open my own fitness studio with in the next 3 years. I have a puppy named havoc. I also used to DJ professionally, and I been legally allowed to fly a plane, longer than I been able to drive a car. I am also a huge geek and star trek fan.
Childhood – My childhood was happy, I would have to say I was a normal happy kid. I had supportive parents, family and friends. We were very close. That being said from an early age I knew that there was something else about me. I could not articulate what it was until much later in life. I always found excuses to play with my sisters barbies. From an early age I was able to very quickly compartmentalize and filter any feminine behavior. I grew up in Chile, which has a very strong male chauvinistic culture. I honestly did not know what the words gay or transgender meant, but I knew they were bad. Once puberty started to happen, I began to cry often at nights, everything just felt wrong. It was a crazy amount of dysphoria. I can not even count the numerous times I feel asleep crying, praying to god, that I could wake up the next day as a girl. I am not sure why it took me so long to connect the dots.
Ignorance – To say that I was ignorant would be an understatement. I did not even know the proper terminology or what Transgender or Transsexual actually meant. As side note, I really dislike the word Transsexual, as I feel that it has so many negative connotation. Growing up, and being scared of being bullied in school I did my best to not be a "->-bleeped-<-". Writing this article has really made me realize how deep of a meaning so many of these words have and how uncomfortable I am to using them. I feel that for this story, it helps to paint a picture of my level of ignorance at that point in life. I had no idea that there was a difference in the definitions for gender and sex. As well as gender identity and sexual orientation.
What triggered me to take action – I was at work, it was very slow day and one of my co-workers showed me a picture of this girl that had transitioned. The post was made at a very popular internet website, which showed the timeline progress of her transition. This blew my mind, in so many levels. This was something I was already considering, but I did not know about Hormone Replacement Therapy. I did not not know what transitioning was, I did not know that you could get real results. I did no know that you could achieve amazing transformation without having to have any surgeries. At this point in my life I thought that a "Transsexual" was just a person who did not like themselves and changed their sex. I know what you are thinking, I was so ignorant, trust me that I know better now. It was at this very moment that everything clicked in place and I knew I had to transition. Today, thinking back, if I would have seen a Transgender role model in TV or in the media, I probably would had started earlier. This is the reason I am very open about my process, because I want other people to be educated. To not wait so late in the game to transition due to ignorance. At this point I knew I had to get started ASAP. I went on a research binge, that made me stay up many nights reading everything I could find online. I was still very scare, vulnerable and did not want to tell anyone due to shame, guilt and fear. I came out to my sister,
Finding my drive for weight loss – My drive was clear and simple. I wanted to "pass". For those of you that are not familiar with the term. To "pass" is a term used in the Transgender community that describes ones ability to go out in public without being mis-gendered by others. Today, the concept of passing is not nearly as important to me. But early in my transition, it was the drive that motivated me to keep losing weight and staying consistent with my hormones and prescriptions. Today, thanks to my lifestyle I am so happy to wake up every morning. I am working hard everyday to reach my goals. I am helping as many people as possible to reach their goals. I want to be the support and motivation that I did not have.
To say that fitness is my passion would be an understatement. I believe in paying it forward. If you need help with getting your body there, please count on me for support :)
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Welcome Alex!
We have a lot in common. I used to live in Orlando, back in Oregon right now, but hoping to be back in sunny Florida soon.
I would love to pick your brain on some diet and fitness goals if you have time. I start HRT in a couple months and like you, I am wanting to work myself hard, to get the body I want.
Let me know if its ok that I can send you a PM.
Talk to you soon.
-Ameilia
Happy to help, message away :)
Welcome to Susan's place. I transitioned in 1982 and there are several other old timers here. Many of the younger ones are up to date on the current medical care and doctors. You should find any resource here you might still need and what you have already learned will benefit the newer members who join the website daily. I found the web site because my voice has never been passable and I was researching voice surgery. I remain here because I can share my knowledge of the head part of the transition. People joining the web site need understanding and therapy is the best solution but there is much that can be done before and while you are in therapy.
A no limits attitude is good because there are people still attempting to move into therapy or make their first public appearance. Helpful suggestions would be greatly appreciated by those members. If there is anything I can help you with, feel free to ask.
Quote from: alegutier on September 04, 2015, 05:54:51 PM
Happy to help, message away :)
Messaging will be blocked until you have 15 quality post so don't worry that you can't message yet.
Quote from: Dena on September 04, 2015, 05:56:28 PM
Messaging will be blocked until you have 15 quality post so don't worry that you can't message yet.
Thank you for letting me know.
And like you said I live in the NO-Limits attitude. We can all make amazing changes with hard work. I will be happy to share my knowledge with others. Please know that you can count on me for support :)
Quote from: Ameilia Pond on September 04, 2015, 05:46:47 PM
Welcome Alex!
We have a lot in common. I used to live in Orlando, back in Oregon right now, but hoping to be back in sunny Florida soon.
I would love to pick your brain on some diet and fitness goals if you have time. I start HRT in a couple months and like you, I am wanting to work myself hard, to get the body I want.
Let me know if its ok that I can send you a PM.
Talk to you soon.
-Ameilia
Looks like we will have to wait for a little, but should not be too long
Quote from: Ameilia Pond on September 04, 2015, 05:46:47 PM
Welcome Alex!
We have a lot in common. I used to live in Orlando, back in Oregon right now, but hoping to be back in sunny Florida soon.
I would love to pick your brain on some diet and fitness goals if you have time. I start HRT in a couple months and like you, I am wanting to work myself hard, to get the body I want.
Let me know if its ok that I can send you a PM.
Talk to you soon.
-Ameilia
Here were some tips you might fine tune together:
http://www.trans-health.com/2001/lose-muscle-gain-fat-dieting-for-mtfs/
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Lovely to have you here xx
Quote from: alegutier on September 04, 2015, 05:37:11 PM
Childhood – My childhood was happy, I would have to say I was a normal happy kid. I had supportive parents, family and friends. We were very close. That being said from an early age I knew that there was something else about me. I could not articulate what it was until much later in life. I always found excuses to play with my sisters barbies. From an early age I was able to very quickly compartmentalize and filter any feminine behavior. I grew up in Chile, which has a very strong male chauvinistic culture. I honestly did not know what the words gay or transgender meant, but I knew they were bad. Once puberty started to happen, I began to cry often at nights, everything just felt wrong. It was a crazy amount of dysphoria. I can not even count the numerous times I feel asleep crying, praying to god, that I could wake up the next day as a girl. I am not sure why it took me so long to connect the dots.
I can certainly relate to all of what you said, except playing with girls toy's... I did not have a sister, in fact there was only one girl in the big family, my cousin... at five we shared a bath time, that's when Dysphoria, as I now know, hit and lasted till late teens, then I learnt how to hide it and tried the model male role, married, kids, grandkids... now late in life, I can't handle the hiding anymore... but that's a whole big chapter...
QuoteIgnorance – To say that I was ignorant would be an understatement. I did not even know the proper terminology or what Transgender or Transsexual actually meant. As side note, I really dislike the word Transsexual, as I feel that it has so many negative connotation. Growing up, and being scared of being bullied in school I did my best to not be a "->-bleeped-<-". Writing this article has really made me realize how deep of a meaning so many of these words have and how uncomfortable I am to using them. I feel that for this story, it helps to paint a picture of my level of ignorance at that point in life. I had no idea that there was a difference in the definitions for gender and sex. As well as gender identity and sexual orientation.
Yes its sad without knowledge and the tools to help, we hid, or died back then... so you are not alone in the ignorance bit... I was so ignorant too!
I am glad you've found us here, you are certainly amongst friends, a big family of help, support and comfort.
I wish you well on your journey and look forward to seeing you around the forum's
L Katy :-*
Hello Alex and welcome to Susan's. Thank you for sharing your story.
:)
Hi Alexandria :icon_wave:
Welcome to Susan's :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
Hugs
V M
Quote from: Cindy on September 04, 2015, 06:25:50 PM
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Thank you, I will be sure to read the information over
Quote from: V M on September 05, 2015, 04:06:50 AM
Hi Alexandria :icon_wave:
Welcome to Susan's :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
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thank you, I this has been such a warm welcome. I will be sure to contribute as much as possible
Quote from: gennee on September 04, 2015, 08:02:16 PM
Hello Alex and welcome to Susan's. Thank you for sharing your story.
:)
Thank you, I love how welcoming the entire team is. If there is anything I can do to help please count on me.
Quote from: alegutier on September 04, 2015, 05:54:51 PM
Happy to help, message away :)
You are very passable. The hormones really thinned your face.