Hi. I've been browsing Susan's for a year or so and favor this site for myself. After this evening's therapist apt, I figured I'm going to finally register here.
A little about me... I am a shy MtF. I've been married for about 8.5 years (14 total) and divorced 2 years ago. My first GD feelings were at age 8. I acknowledge that after many binges, I cannot live happily without femininity. I'm also a Christian, and love Christ, God, and the Holy Spirit in any way I can. I'm a complicated person, gender fluid; I range from 1/3 to 2/3 female depending how I feel. I remember marking my toenails with my crayons as a small, introverted 'boy', and always shy and intellectual. I grew up fearing masculine men and still find them quite undesirable to this day. I know its harsh but I feel the men throughout history has largely been responsible for screwing up history and at times feel ashamed for having XY chromosomes. I am especially interested in nails, feminism, astronomy, and the last two Commandments Jesus gave us.
I tried HRT early 2014 but due to an illness I had to stop. Throughout 2015 I'm back on an herbal HRT regimen and plan on going back on standard HRT soon. I admit at times I am at odds with my faith and my transgender feelings/state. I'm an open-minded person by default, and despise being judgmental. I hope I can contribute here :)
Welcome to Susan's Place. While I am sure you know the bible better than I do I have found a way to come to terms with god. There is proof now that ->-bleeped-<- is cause by a change in the brain that happens before birth. As such it is nothing more than a birth defect. We surgically correct visible birth defects when possible and many of these children go on to live happy lives. I don't think a loving god would expect us to live in pain when a treatment is available to remove the pain we feel. If anything, after treatment I feel closer to god because the pain is no longer a constant distraction.
In time you will leave your mark on this website as many have. You may leave it in unexpected ways like me. I joined this site for information on voice surgery then I stated posting around 13 post a day. I think the moderators got tired of reading all my output so they made me one so they didn't have to police me. I now find I am helping other and helping to keep the web site operational. I never intended that to happen 5 short months ago.
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Carissajaye,
Welcome! You've found a wonderful nonjudgmental place to hang your hat. Everyone here is very supportive and when you stroll through the forums you'll be inspired. :)
Hi Carrisajaye :icon_wave:
Welcome to Susan's :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
Hugs
V M