Hey everyone!!
I'm Samantha, and I've been on hormones for 15 days now (estradiol) and I've been struggling with my gender since I was about 4. I've always sort of thought, "Well, maybe I'll be a girl in the next life," or, "Gender is a construct of culture and it's stupid to think it matters," or, "I would do it if it was a perfect transition and I was able to snap my fingers and be the person I see myself as."
Over the past few years I've been struggling with it even more than I had previously and generally experiencing heightened gender dysphoria, especially as a result of being perceived as male in a conservative field (majoring in mechanical engineering in college). I decided to do something about it finally, and I'm a lot less conflicted with myself and the intersectionality of my gender and sexual identity. I'm pansexual but I've only really been with girls so that also kind of contributed to my self-doubt about transitioning and the true nature of my feelings.
I've finally found a partner who has seen how serious I am about transitioning and she sees me for who I am and is completely ok with that and very supportive and understanding. While my transition is a personal thing it definitely helps to have good support networks and I've been very actively reaching out to find support from the people around me.
The trans* community and what we stand for is SUPER important and it's so enlightening to find an online community of people who have felt similar ways/had similar experiences, culturally and personally.
SO! That's my hello and a little bit of a window into my life and I'm really really looking forward to getting to know you all better :-)
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Welcome to Susan's Place. Pretty much everybody is welcome here so you should fit right in regardless of where in the genders spectrum you fit. As you will find as you spend more time on the site, we have a tremendous talent base here from art to engineering. My area is computer programming and digital design so not only will you be able to talk about transgender issues, you may also talk shop. Feel free to ask any questions you might have.
Hi Samantha,
A big Aussie welcome to Susan's family. It's good of you to drop in and say "Hi". Hope you like it here, and you stay for a while.
There is a mountain of information, resources and friendship waiting for you here, you just need to jump in start talking and ask any question you like. You're quite safe here and we are very accepting.
Isn't it simply amazing how we all try to justice that which is not true, in preference to accepting what our inner being is screaming out as the truth. I'm continually fascinated with that behaviour of mine, I hopefully left behind in my therapists office.
Great to hear you have sure a supportive partner. Be open to possibility of your transition, being everyone else's as well.
Looking forward to hearing more of your story in time to come, but in the meantime, be safe, well and happy.
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Catherine