Hey guys. I just wanted to share something. Have any of you felt that feeling of peace when you reached that point in your transition where you were comfortable with doing "masculine" things and being masculine. What I mean is, I was so uncomfortable with myself before T. And yeah, T is going to make me more confident and I personally knew that. But everything feels so so, in place. Like getting hair in new places, the constant voice drops, actually HAVING to shave my face and just that settling feeling when I'm in public that I'm not going to be seen as female anymore. The other day I was just talking to a cashier and I could hear how deep and smooth my voice was, it was ->-bleeped-<-ing. awesome. It's more than just being "confident" to me and I hope you guys feel that.
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Yes. I've described it to friends as "incredibly relaxing," and it's very hard for some of them to grasp why that's so. How odd that just being seen as oneself can feel like such a momentous thing...
I'm glad to read this - this is what I'm hoping to achieve haha. the idea of feeling 'relaxed' or comfortable in public! exciting
For me it was an incredible high. I always felt masculine, but any time I had to shower, get dressed etc., it just reminded me that I wasn't right. Before I transitioned at 26, I had very low self esteem, no confidence and kept my head down and slouched my shoulders. After I started taking T and changed my name, I went back to school, first got a B.S. in biology, then went on to get a veterinary degree. It completely changed my life. Before I realized that being a transgender was a real thing, I was fast tracking to suicide. It was night and day for me.
Now, 26 years later, I can honestly say that I have not had so much as a second of regret for making the decision to transition. It doesn't take away the scars you may have inside from the years spent in the wrong body, and your new body won't be perfect, but if you accept that from the beginning, you can leave most of it behind you.
The one piece of advice I would give you is to stay in therapy even after you transition. Depending on your age, there may be issues that have caused emotional scars that should be dealt with as well as learning how to handle your new found life. I made the mistake of stopping therapy as soon as I could and am paying for it now. Enjoy the changes in both your body and soul. I'm happy things are going well for you. If you run into hurdles along the way, the forum is always here and everyone is supportive. Congratulations!
sam1234