Hello! I'm a 20-year-old FtM boy from France, looking for advice and friendship, at least some people to talk too :D My pronouns are He/His.
I love video games, reading, watching Netflix, learning, ... I like to draw and sometimes to paint :)
Thanks to my best friend who is genderqueer, I discovered the non-binarity and I joined a Facebook group about it. I thought a lot about it, as I have always felt some emptiness in me, as if I was missing something, living always in a disguise, which made me feel different and ununderstood... It was last May and since then I thought a lot and spoke a lot about it with my friend and my boyfriend. I remembered some events of my childhood and puberty that I had forgotten. I remembered some feeling an thoughts I had forbidden myself to have, and I slowly understood what was happening since I was born. I am a boy, not a girl. I had blinded myself so I would believe the lie everybody tell, but the fact was there: I am a boy. At first, I thought about non-binarity, but that wasn't it, I was always doubting, trying to fit in labels that aren't the good ones for me... It was like trying to fit in clothes that weren't the good size, it felt bad. Finally, I admit it, about a month ago, and now I am here ^^"
I've wearing a packer (Mr Limpy if I remember right) since early June this year and the day I first wore it is one of the best of my life, I cried in front of the mirror in my boyfriend's bathroom for like forever, as if I was finally being a little bit more myself, as if I was putting the disguise down.
I have a very few friends that knows about me being a boy : my boyfriend knows about it, he is living the closest to me and we have been together for a long time. My bestfriend knows a lot, but is living far away for college and I having trouble speaking open-hearted with him as we don't see us often :( but we write each other letters and I plan to come out in my next one, as he did the same and it seems the right way to do it for me ^^ My girlfriend too knows a little about it as she is living far away and we met each other little time ago. My little brother knows some stuff as he is the kind of people that observe and try to understand everything, I know he guessed part of it and that he will remain silent about it.
Sorry if that was long, I didn't know what to write at first, then I was writing a novel x) and sorry for my english, I'm willing to improve it !
And, about my name, Derpy, it is a tribute to a character in My Little Pony, a show that I really like and which gives me courage everyday, whether it comes from the community or the show :)
Love you all <3
Welcome to Susan's Place. From the sounds of it, it appears you are FTM and you will find plenty of company here. The non binary is here as well if you lean toward the masculine side of non binary. I am MTF with my surgery 33 years ago but around here we try to help others because we all share common feelings. Feel free to ask any questions you might have I if I can, I will answer them for you.
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Thank you ! I'll read it tomorrow morning (it is midnight here ^^). I am FtM as you said, but I had no operation or else as I am currently living at my parent's house and not out yet, as I don't feel safe enough to do so :/ I'm not even sure I want to start taking T or having surgery, as I have some health issue and it still kinda scares me ^^"
The transition isn't the same for everybody. Do what you need to feel comfortable with you body. If you feel you can get along without surgery or HRT then take that approach. If you need more then do what you need. With as large of population as we have up here you will find others doing the same.
Okay :) I'll think about that
Hi Derpy :icon_wave:
Welcome to Susan's :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
Hugs
V M
Hi Derpy,
A big Aussie welcome to Susan's family. It's good of you to drop in and say "Hi". Hope you like it here, and you stay for a while.
There is a mountain of information, resources and friendship waiting for you here, you just need to jump in start talking and ask any question you like. You're quite safe here and we are very accepting.
You're introduction was perfect. Wasn't too long at all, and your English was perfect. Better than my 'strine' (Australian) ;D ;D
Looking forward to hearing more of your story in time to come, but in the meantime, be safe, well and happy.
Speak to you as soon as I wash the floor
Lotsa huggs
Catherine
Thank you all for your warm welcoming!
@Dena : I read all the links this morning, I understand it all and I hope I won't make any mistakes ^^" the "they/them" pronoun is quite new to me and I don't know how to use a verb with it when I want to talk about a person (they are or they is?).
@Catherine : Whenever you want you can contact me :) I'd love to chat, but I think I haven't posted enough already in order to send PMs :/
Hi Derpy,
Don't worry about not having enough posts. I know you Frenchmen, you love to chat. Won't take you long.
Speak to you as soon as I feed the cat
Huggs
Catherine
Yeah, we love having a good chat with a croissant and a coffee :)
Haha good luck feeding the cat, I have three waiting for me at my parent's house ^^
Aaaaarrh. Coffee and croissant. YOU HAVE MY UNDIVIDED ATTENTION. Start talking, I'm listening.
Speak to you as soon as I brush my hair
Huggs
Catherine
Haha can't wait to have my PM so we can talk !
I have to get to class sorry ^^ be back soon :)
Quote from: Derpy on November 04, 2015, 08:17:20 AM
@Dena : I read all the links this morning, I understand it all and I hope I won't make any mistakes ^^" the "they/them" pronoun is quite new to me and I don't know how to use a verb with it when I want to talk about a person (they are or they is?).
I am pretty new to non binary as well and haven't figured out the singular forms. I avoid the need to use those forms in my post or used the name if needed. The English language lacks some of the words needed for non binary and as such we need to be more careful in our writing.
Oh I see ... It is the same in French, nothing neutral at all so the non binary people had too create terms (for example we have "il" for man and "elle" for woman (he and she) and they have contracted it to have "iel" which is neutral^^). But I will ask how they use they :D so I won't make mistakes and if I find out I'll tell you :)
Hey Derpy! :) My name is Lindsey (still thinking of a name), FTM and pre-everything. I would love talking to people going through the same things I am
Welcome! I am 20 year old trans girl kind of same experience as you. Looking foward to hear more about your journey thanks for sharing! :)
Hi ! Thanks :)
@Rodgersl31 : we can talk by PMs if you want (and if I have unblock them, I am not sure), I am often avalaible :)
@Nattiedoll : looking forward to know more about yours too! :)
Love you all and hugs ~~
Alright sounds good :D