It occurred to me that something stopped happening to me after I started HRT which used to happen quite frequently. I would be in a conversation or situation responding normally and appropriately, but inside it would feel like my body was on autopilot, doing it all with me just being an observer. In psychology this is known as disassociation and it is NOT a good symptom. It just never occurred to me to say anything about it. Today I realized that it hasn't happened in more than a year. I'm infinitely more present, more real. If I had any doubts left that transitioning is right for me they're gone now!