Okay so it was girl jeans and a feminine cut T-shirt. And I went down to the laundry room, but my heart's pounding just the same. I've run errands out-outside in the jeans before, but never both a feminine top and feminine jeans. Plus I walked by people and the sky didn't fall, so I'm happy.
Enjoy the excitement.
I remember it well, and although it was nerve wracking, I really miss it somehow.
Now it is just "What different outfit should I wear today?", "Skirt or dress or jeans?", "Will the rain ruin my shoes?", "Will it be too hot/cold?", "Where the heck have I misplaced that particular top/bra/jacket/shirt/skirt?" and so on.
I neither think nor care any more about any objections people might have, but I want to look good when I present myself to the general public.
As I have said before, this is a very slippery slope. Five or six years ago I was standing in your shoes, today I am approaching my SRS anniversary.
Congrats! I remember that progression at that nervousness.
Congrats. That is really exciting. I know that filing so well.☺️☺️
I know the feeling well. Congratulations on being brave enough to be yourself. ;D
Congrats!!! Like everyone above said: i know exactly how that feels!
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Oh yes. Do I ever recall that feeling! I felt like the whole world knew about me and you know what? No one did!
I can recall the first time I ever went out fully dressed like it only happened yesterday. My blood pressure must have been through the roof and my pulse must have been a million a minute. I sneaked out the back of the house in broad daylight, got my car out of the garage and took off like the Demons of Hell were after me. To top it off, it was a classic sports car and the top was down because that was all part of the bet I had with someone who figured I wouldn't dare do it. At least I wasn't alone when I went to the event. A lady friend came with me.
When I got to the restaurant, I couldn't see a parking spot outside so I parked and waited down the block. I was sitting there with my head stuck in the owner's manual trying to hide when my friend says "Don't look now but there's a car stopping beside us". She says "He's putting the window down." I could almost hear my heart beating like a drum! He wanted to know when we were leaving so he could have the parking spot and my friend said we were not even ready to leave yet.
Fortunately I saw a fellow come out of the coffee shop and leave right outside where I wanted to go. I went down the street and probably could have gotten a job as a movie stunt driver the way I managed to do the U turn and get right into the parking spot!!!
We were early and my friend went over to the owner's daughter outside and asked if we could go in early and she agreed. As I got out of the car I got some cat calls about nice legs (had a skirt on) and went inside. The fellows doing the cat calls didn't look like they'd appreciate a trans person so at least they didn't know. The owner's daughter's eyes opened so wide when she saw me and said "It's you! You did it! I thought it was your sister coming!"
I spent over 4 hours fully dressed because it felt so good and it was then and there I knew exactly what was missing in my life. The only reason I changed back was because I had won the bet, nature was calling loudly and I didn't feel comfortable using either washroom dressed as I was.
If there was a costume party anywhere, I'd go as Klinger from M*A*S*H so I could wear a dress and I even won a bottle of wine too! No one even knew why I was really wearing the dress other than it was a costume party. Now? It feels as comfortable as ever to go anywhere all dressed up as it is who I always was inside.
Love,
Clare
Quote from: AnamethatstartswithE on November 17, 2015, 12:41:20 PM
Okay so it was girl jeans and a feminine cut T-shirt. And I went down to the laundry room, but my heart's pounding just the same. I've run errands out-outside in the jeans before, but never both a feminine top and feminine jeans. Plus I walked by people and the sky didn't fall, so I'm happy.
Lol, that kind of stuff is pretty much all I wear. ;) I think that is what most women wear for casual dress anymore. A lot of transgender women seem to get caught up in the pressure to prove themselves and end up overdressing, but if you actually look at how most women dress, you will see a lot of jeans and t-shirts.
Thank you everyone.
Quote from: Miyuki on November 18, 2015, 04:16:28 PM
Lol, that kind of stuff is pretty much all I wear. ;) I think that is what most women wear for casual dress anymore. A lot of transgender women seem to get caught up in the pressure to prove themselves and end up overdressing, but if you actually look at how most women dress, you will see a lot of jeans and t-shirts.
I understand, and I'm sure everyone who saw me just assumed I was a guy wearing really form fitting clothes. I'm still happy with myself. It's funny, I wear pants and a polo all day at work and when I come home I put on a tank top/sweater and skirt. Whereas when I go full time I'll be wearing sweaters and skirts to work and coming home to change into jeans and a T shirt.
Life sure is strange when you're trans.