Let's see if i can write one of these kind of posts. Hm, i am a 20 (21 in a couple of weeks) year old MtF living in Sweden. I've been on hormones for almost a year now. Started electrolysis a bit more than a month ago. Generally things are looking the usual shade of pale gray. I study computer science at university, and don't have much friends. Even though i don't have much of a life, i don't have much energy for studying either. I have failed about half of my courses so far. The biggest highlight in the week is my electrolysis appointments :) I find i actually quite like the pain. What i don't like is (of course) that i have to let it grow out before appointments, and being all red and scarred afterwards. But before i used to pluck everything and all the ingrown hairs made me almost as scarred, so i really shouldn't complain :) (and both the hair and scars are not as noticeable now as when i started a month ago)
I wonder if i might be weird for a mtf. I don't feel i have ever fully tried to pass. I havn't had any problem wearing dresses and stuff in public without passing, in fact i kind of preferred not looking as i was trying to pass as then i wouldn't have to be embarrassed for not passing :) Now i have totally no clue as to if/when i am passing or not. Most people are referring to me as female, but it is probably out of pity or something. I never wear makeup (mostly because i don't really know how to..). My boobs have almost reached a size normal for boys by now. (Before hrt there were nothing but skin covering my ribs, i am serous, you could totally see every bone clearly in my body.) I am quite long (175cm ~5'8.9''?), and of course i am self conscious about shoulders and jawbones and feet and stuff. In short i am chronically messed up and confused but living with it. :)
Hi Ketti
Welcome it is nice to meet you. I can relate with the make-up if I try to put on make up I look like pennywise (the clown from Stephen Kings IT) so I leave the make-up alone. I haven't gotten anything done with my facial hair yet I haven't had the money I am planning to pay for laser treatments with my income taxes (ok its my wifes income taxes but since I stay home with the kids she splits them with me!)
and as far as injoying the pain I am envious of you because I am a complete wuss about it I'm scared of the pain!! and as far as chronically messed up and confussed you are not alone there either! you are among friends here!!
I guess i am really lucky living in Sweden. The government is paying for electrolysis and they will pay for SRS too. And there is a discount system so you never pay more than 1800kr (~$280) for medicine per year (including hormones and anything you need a prescription for). And there is a similar discount system for doctor visits (including psychologists, voice therapists etc). So even though i am from a quite poor family i don't have to worry about how i should afford electrolysis etc. I guess the downside is high taxes, but hey, i am the winner here :)
Regarding the pain of electrolysis i think the fact that i plucked before has helped me preparing for it (ok, being masochistic also helps ^^). I hear laser is quite painful too, i wonder with is more painful?
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Hi Ketti,
Welcome to susans.
You seem to have a good attitude and high spirits. Good for you!
I'm happy that you're getting what you need for health care and I'm sure that the things that don't seem to make sense now for you will all work out.
See you around,
Rebis
Hi Ketti and welcome!
I'm glad you're getting everything you need. It must make things so much easier for you not having to worry.
I'll be visiting Sweden soon. Maybe I should stay there a while and see if they can help me too.
Anyway... Its lovely to hear from you :)
Bobbie XXX
Thank you for all the nice welcomes :)
Hi Ketti, welcome to Susans and thanks for the intro. Hon, I'm twice your age and still confused. The good thing is you're so young and you came to terms with your ->-bleeped-<- at an early age which is something that a lot of girls, including myself, wished they could have done. Time really is on your side hon. I wish you all the best on your journey.
Hugs & kisses,
Monika