I just need someone to talk to. no judgment, no pretending, no false validation. but it seems like I'll never get that.
I would hope you'd find it here. The reality though is that everyone in the world has their opinions, even if they are supportive and trying to be helpful that is likely to show up somehow.
By now you should know enough about the treatments that are possible for you. You have several options open to you so as I have suggested on another thread, you have 5 years to reach your goal. I don't care what you decide to do with your life as long as you find happiness. What ever path you decide to take, I will do what I can to help you reach your goal.
So tell us what we can do to help you find happiness. How will you spend the next 5 years?
you'd have to ask me again in a few weeks buy right now, I'm planning on escaping reality