Susan's Place Transgender Resources

hello all
am mera, 38 y old, am from Egypt
first am happy to be here with you all
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will....
as you may know how it's to be a transwoman in a country like this or in the all Arab stone age world,
what I am is forbidden!!
so I must live in secret, I can't have any medical care or any kind of support,
every day I see girls like me ( MTF ) facing Ridicule ,persecution and imprisonment
so.. I had to live 2 Separated lives
one for the community and family , as a the male they want me to be :(
and one for me, for my fem soul,
but that isn't as easy as it sound !
I have to do things and take decision that very cretical to my life...
like i wanted to study art for my College, but hey that is not a manly things (family says), you should be like your daddy an engineer. so it's done!!
I can't imagine myself in relation with a woman , in fact I have a boyfriend , but could I say that , it will be simply a polite or a knife cutting my neck, a very religious and innervated and manly and stone age society
so I marred when doubt become very close
and life goes on
so ... couple month ago , I couldn't take it anymore , so I come out to that woman am marred to as a transwoman, and asked her to accept it and everyone should be on his way, and that my friends was the stupidest thing I ever done
what I was thinking of or what I was imagine her will do?
she was very suspicion and see many things in me that don't fit as man, like waxing all my body, wearing feminine perfume, and how hormones Influence to my body
she .... the nature female , tern to a lioness a very ferocious one
she give me a couple slaps on my face and she swear to not just tell all my family ( who will kill me as simple as it is to avoid the scandal) , she will go to the media and say everything to the all world !!
unless I reconsider this madness and go to a doctor ( not to cheek my case , to make me the man I should be)
and to go to a religious man ( a sheikh) to correct my soul and exorcist the dooms in me !!
and now I live in hill
I am looked in my room, no friends, not allowed to go out,
I forced to stop hrt ( which was a self description , I mean without doctors, but it had a nice effect ) and take some description a doze of testosterone
stop taking care with my body ( really I become like a gorilla ) she even forced me to grow a bear :(
really guys am thinking about end that miserable life of Maine
last.... am sorry to bother you all with this drama but I was in real need to talk
thanks

Hi Mera  :icon_wave:

Welcome to Susan's  :)  Glad to have you here

I feel for you, possibly the place I live is not quite as harsh as your situation and other places in the world but I know what it is to be attacked, marginalized, maligned and persecuted by haters, religious folks and even people I considered to be family and friends

Sometimes you really just don't know who you can trust and so it becomes difficult to trust anyone

I am not the religious type but my heart goes out to you and I pray for your safety and happiness

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V M

Hi Mera, welcome to Susan's Place! I'm from Boston. Sorry that you face so many hurdles. See you around the site!

Hugs, Devlyn

Hello and welcome  :)

here are a few resources:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,197523.msg1756901.html#msg1756901

One brochure is from the british National Health Service, a very reputable and unbiased source.
They show in easy understandable pictures.
There are other materials, which might easily be translated.

It shows that being transgender is biological, to do with brain development before birt.
There are differences in brains of women and men so a mismatch is possible.
This is fixed before birth.
There are even substances known to cause a higher rate of transgender people.

Possibly your wife could see that point of view.
Its also possible she is very emotional and has problems seeing it that way.
Possibly you might talk about it... what she really feels... maybe she thinks its some kind of whim but its not.
It has a biological cause, transgender people are literally a womans brain in a mans body ( there is a spectrum of this, thats why there is a transgender spectrum. Some people feel they want to crossdress, others want to transition, depending on severity).

One example from your culture could be I ran... being transgender is accepted there, and there is treatment available.

Its also possible there are transgender groups or resources online from your country.

Its all a matter of viewpoint.

By the way there are even online counselors:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,187135.0.html

Hold on to your dreams and keep on, the universe has a way to come up with ways...
keep on keeping on...

Testosterone treatment cannot cure this by the way...


keep asking questions... people like to help...

many *hugs*

Hello Mera and welcome to Susan's. I'm sorry about all the struggles you are having. I hope that this site is a haven for you where you can be yourself.

:)