I started taking the "mini-pill" a couple of weeks ago, on the advice of my gender therapist. She suggested that it might make things easier until I could start T by maybe stopping shark week, etc. But I've been crying off and on for about a week now. Not even for any reason, just crying till I have to puke. Tonight I even did something I haven't done in months and self harmed. Now I'm sitting here trying not to look at my sleeping meds. I know this will pass, but tonight is hard.
I think it must be the progesterone. But I don't know. I've had really bad bouts of depression before, but never near constant crying.
Has anyone else done this?
Thomas
I had the same thing happen a while back, myself.
My doctor recommended for me to use the patch since I get very painful cramps. These patches don't contain progesterone though, they contain ethinylestradiol and norelgestromin. Either way, the first day or two I was fine, then the next few days I noticed I was crying and getting upset at small things, but wrote it off as shark week symptoms, even though I never got those specific ones before. Then came monday, and obviously, I had to go places. Well, I actually cried maybe about two or three times during the day, but I felt my eyes tear up and had to try my hardest to suppress it about twenty times, and I'm really not exaggerating about that. Then evening came around, suddenly I broke down and cried for about three hours straight, then at some point I must have fallen asleep from exhaustion, woke up a little later again and cried for a few more hours before falling asleep again. I was in absolutely no state to even leave my room the next day, so I just stayed at home. Now keep in mind that I normally never cry or get upset about things.
Obviously, this was definitely not good, and things were still getting worse, since it had been much less only a few days ago, so I decided it was definitely not worth it and ripped the patch off. The crying and being upset part disappeared completely in something like 24 hours, maybe a little more.
Either way, definitely not going to try that again. I'm not sure whether it was a good idea to rip it off and stop using it just like that, but if things get too bad for you, I would probably recommend stopping immediately. A fair warning though, you will probably start shark week within a few days of stopping.
Is depo-provera available where you are? That is most commonly what doctors are putting transguys on to help end shark week, and what I would recommend.
Quote from: FTMax on January 10, 2016, 12:10:25 PM
Is depo-provera available where you are? That is most commonly what doctors are putting transguys on to help end shark week, and what I would recommend.
Seconded, I am on this now. I even do my own shots.
Progesterone made me extremely depressed, unmotivated and have bad mood swings. I had to stop it after a few weeks.
Well, I'm currently taking it to kill the shark while I wait - can't say I feel emotional on it at all. I feel anxious, but I think that's just because my life is kinda precarious right now and I'm just generally worried about a lot of things going to crap due to forces well outside of my control. I don't think it's the progesterone in my case.
In reference to what happened when I got ill last year and my estrogen levels tanked - that was sheer hell. Anxiety through the roof and couldn't stop thinking about hellish nightmare scenarios for the future. After getting better and going on P... well, honestly I think I feel a lot better. Although prone to generalized anxiety still.
The kind that just simmers below the surface and doesn't manifest as emotion or tears or frustration or whatever... but drives you nuts all the same.
Quote from: FTMax on January 10, 2016, 12:10:25 PM
Is depo-provera available where you are? That is most commonly what doctors are putting transguys on to help end shark week, and what I would recommend.
just wanted to say make sure you're aware that depo-provera may or MAY NOT stop shark week... I had one shot a few months before going on T, and that shark 'week' lasted for 3 months non-stop...
I was on the mini-pill for months a long time ago and NEVER STOPPED BLEEDING. It was a disaster.
I hope they've changed those pills.
Stopped as of last night. Just worst crying and depression round so far, actually started making plans to just finish myself off. Best friend came over, talked me down, and hauled away all the pills. Haven't heard back from my therapist about whether it I should stop or not, but at this point, I really don't give a good god damn. That stuff is just not right, at least, not right for me. I'd rather put with shark week.
Thomas
If it's causing this much stress you did the right thing quitting.
WorkingOnThomas, sound like shark week would be better than what you are going through now. I willn't take any female hormones.
Yeah, I think shark week is the better option. Almost landed in the hospital last night.