Well it was hard starting around the afternoon. Im feeling better now but it's an ongoing thing with that dress code. Ive been having to make joke of it all just to feel better but ofcourse Ill have to face my troubles again. I had to go look for some shirts. My mom was along with me. We got in the store and well I started to feel that pain come back as I saw the girls clothes section. I walked back and wanted to avoid it but needed a few shirts. I stopped to look for stuff for my niece but knew Id have to go look. Thankfully there was nothing.
Well this put me in a bitter mood even worse. I went to another store and I had the same problem of depression but this time worse. I actually got kinda hateful not at my mom but infront of her out of my own pain of which wasnt right and caused her to get mad. Her and me are fine now. This is why I hate being in the boys clothes if it's ever about me. I never go there unless I have to. I wanted to cry it hurt so bad but if I cried, well things would get complicated.
I felt like that little kid denied going to my sisters slumber party because everyone thinks Im a boy. It was tough today. I hate hearing men, man, sir and boy being related to me. I wish I had been born with a girls body to match my brain which would fix it all.
Sorry to hear what you're going through.
The only thing you can do is to start doing sometjing about the situation. By that I don't mean you should transition strraight away, but maybe take baby steps to relieve you gd if it hurts you that much.
In my case, I grabbed the bull by its horns and went full time (not everyone is the same). I was in so much pain that I I couldn't wait a single more day!
I am now a happy postop woman leading a stealth lifestyle. The best decision I have ever made.
yeah same here i started full time at the beginning of this year im seeing a gender therapist tomorrow hopefully i can be given hormones as my next step
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I'm going tomorrow too. I'm not out at all yet though. Very complicated life to do that. Gonna see where therapy leads me. Hope for the best for your session tomorrow sweetie.
<3 Suzi
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I can totally relate. Going shopping for men's clothes is one of my worst dysphoria triggers, too. I hate it!
Quote from: KathyLauren on January 13, 2016, 01:35:01 PM
I can totally relate. Going shopping for men's clothes is one of my worst dysphoria triggers, too. I hate it!
It was awful. I knew it would just trigger me bad so I tried to put it off. I had the same thing happen a year ago with my hair when it got cut. It took me hours to fall asleep just like last night it gets me so upset. It's worse as it's something you can't just tell someone what is really upsetting you so you are stuck inside all alone trying to deal with it.