Hey girls,
Well this is it.. I am going to Thailand Feb 14th.. takes 36 hours to get there with layovers.. 24 hours in the air..
I feel like this time has come so fast.. just over two years.
When I started transition it seemed so far away.
Now its here.
Susan's Place has helped so much over the years. Its a wonderful source of info and to share info too.
I really feel like I have not given enough time to others on this site.. and I am sorry for that.
I have just been so busy.. and then there is Face Book which basically took over my life.
I just want to thank everyone who has ever responded to my posts, gave me advise or even criticized me.
I remember one chick.. she may still be on here.. She had some negatives on her plus minus thing.
But for some reason I liked how candid she was, she cracked me up and could not offend me.
I remember one post where I was contemplating transition and she was like just do it or don't.. make up your damn mind.. LOL.. I will never forget that...
Anyway here I am.. .just a chick now.. no turning back.
My ex called me this morning from her house.. she said.... I will have coffee ready soon when will you be there? We work out of my other house together which is her house now.
I was like I am still in bed.. she said she was just getting ready to get up
Then she said... I miss Doug so much.. that she had bad dreams that night about me and stuff. Well I had them too.. and I am laying there thinking WTF.. questioning myself a little.
You see when there is no mirror I can get into Doug mode a little with her on the phone.. we talk about missing each other and what a wonderful life we had together.
We both cried.. we both know I will never be a guy again.. never was.. and that this is the best for both of us.. but it still hurts so much.
So much hurt,,,,,,so much joy...
But really if you think about it.. thats life right.. that is living.
I am so alive.. I love the ups.. and I can handle the downs.. because life is wonderful.
Hope this helps someone today.. just love yourself and the gift of life you have.
Love
Keri
You rock. You deserve as much love s there is in the world. It must be scary but you are a bastion of strength in a feminine body.
Good luck on the next leg of yo
ur journey.
With warmth
Joanna
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Thank you for sharing. Its really friggin hard even when you know exactly what you want. Lots of tears with our SOs. Please keep us updated and keep your chin up. The next few months you will need to be in good spirits.
Do you have some loved ones who can help with your recovery
Hi Keri,
Good luck with your trip. I hope everything works out and you recover quickly.
Rachel
Hi Keri,
I am going with what Joanna50 said. You deserve all the blessings in the world. I wish you much happiness. I don't know you personally, but your presence here has been uplifting and informative, and a testament to the human spirit.
Good luck!
With kindness,
Terri
Hey girl don't be so hard on yourself. Sure we all could have used some more Dodie posts or more Keri posts but the ones that we got were quality product. I know your sharing has helped me and countless others struggling to figure out who we truly are.
On a lighter note, your sharing makes some of us feel that a somewhat distant cousin (who our crazy uncle sometimes talks about) is going somewhere to do something. ::)
In reality girl, when you go on the 14th just know that you are not going alone, you are taking with you a lot of our thoughts, prayers and love. Your sisters here know how much this means to you and how important it is. You have been a source of inspiration and help to me as I have come to grips with my journey and I know others feel the same way. We are all waiting to hear about you adventure and look forward to your safe return.
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Hey girls
Muah💜💜
Thanks for the replies
Hope, yes I has an extraordinary amount of support at home including my ex, my son and daughter and friends.
I will also have a lot of therapy
I know it's going to be hard.
I'm ready
I am so blessed to know so many amazing people here too that are always willing to listen
I will never forget the support I have here on Susan's
One day I hope to make a difference for my sisters
Keri
good luck
Keri,
Wishing you the best with your upcoming surgery. Safe travels.
Big step and very jealous. You'll be fine. Better than new!
You are wonderful BTW...
Hugs
Jen
Quote from: JLT1 on February 03, 2016, 02:44:59 PM
Big step and very jealous. You'll be fine. Better than new!
You are wonderful BTW...
Hugs
Jen
Hi Jen, well it is getting close omg.. just 9 days and I leave.. its a very emotional time for me right now.. something I did not expect but I am good
Love
Keri