There have been post I've made which explains my sexual desires, which some members don't appreciate too much, which I understand and respect. But when I have said I'm a pre op lesbian transwoman, or talk about my hopes when I'm post op, there is nothing sexual about that for me. I'm just explaining my situation, that's all. I don't enjoy being on a forum, where others have the wrong idea about me. In my experience, that just leads to trouble. Sometimes, the topic I make, explaining that aspect of my current situation is helpful to that topic. I hope others understand.
We've told you before to keep the "post op lesbian transwoman" matter off the forum, and we mean it. If you identify as a trans woman, fine. If you identify as a trans woman you is attracted to women that is also fine. But you are stuck in a loop about it and your continual fantasy about "when you are post op" is of no good to you if you are doing nothing about. Please talk to a therapist.