Susan's Place Transgender Resources

Community Conversation => Transgender talk => Topic started by: KathyLauren on March 03, 2016, 01:59:56 PM

Title: Small progress, in my dreams at least
Post by: KathyLauren on March 03, 2016, 01:59:56 PM
I am not usually into dream analysis.  For one thing, I seldom remember my dreams for more than a second or two after waking up.  Occasionally, I will remember a small bit of a dream, especially if it is a recurring theme.

One recurring theme is crossdressing, and, in particular, the fear of getting caught.  I have had many dreams where I happened to be dressed, though that was incidental to the 'plot' until someone noticed or was about to.  I'd wake up feeling embarassed.

Last night, I had a similar dream.  However, this time, I caught a glimpse of myself in a mirror and thought, "Dammit, I look good.  I'm not going to hide."  And the other people in my dream agreed that I looked good.

I am not going to put a lot of effort into trying to understand the dream, but it seems to be telling me something positive about accepting myself.
Title: Re: Small progress, in my dreams at least
Post by: keira166 on March 18, 2016, 12:17:31 PM
Hi Kathy, did you have the recurring cross dressing dreams before you thought about your gender identity?  I couldnt remember most of my dreams, but since I've started questioning, I've been able to remember many more, and I have about 1 a week about being a trans girl, (it may just be that my gender occupies the majority of my time in free thought though).

Btw, I'm not a dream analyst or anything, just something I've been trying to keep track of for a while. 

And congrats btw, that sounds like an amazing dream ;D
Title: Re: Small progress, in my dreams at least
Post by: KathyLauren on March 18, 2016, 05:34:08 PM
Quote from: keira166 on March 18, 2016, 12:17:31 PM
Hi Kathy, did you have the recurring cross dressing dreams before you thought about your gender identity?
Hmmm.  That's a harder question to answer than it seems.

I have had the recurring dreams ever since I first started cross-dressing.  Does that count as "thinking about my gender identity"?  Because back then, when I thought about it (Okay, I guess that answers my question, doesn't it?  :laugh: ), what I though was, "Does this mean I am trans?"  And my other self answered, "No way!!"  Denial is a powerful thing. 

I am only unravelling all this in hindsight.  So, thanks for the poke: I just figured out a bit more.  To answer your question then, no, I've been thinking about my gender identity (though not admitting it) for most of my life.
Title: Re: Small progress, in my dreams at least
Post by: SanaRinomi on March 20, 2016, 11:50:49 AM
I don't remember dreams... like AT ALL! Then when my gender dysphoria hit a certain level I slowly started to remember my dreams! All of which I was female! Which made me happy :D

P.s. This is when I was 9-11, so yeah.

P.s.s. If this post doesn't sound friendly nor nice to you. I beg you please find a way to slap me into making    nicer posts! I don't want to sound in anyway like that (One very unsightly word used to be here) that's all up in your face like "Well I started when I was..." because I don't like that type of people and I don't wanna be one.

Note to Self: Stop using so many exclamation marks! Dammit I did it again!
Title: Re: Small progress, in my dreams at least
Post by: KathyLauren on March 20, 2016, 06:14:35 PM
Welcome, Sana.  Your post sounds fine to me.   :)
Title: Re: Small progress, in my dreams at least
Post by: SanaRinomi on March 22, 2016, 02:42:21 AM
Quote from: KathyLauren on March 20, 2016, 06:14:35 PM
Welcome, Sana.  Your post sounds fine to me.   :)

Thank you Kathy! Love the cat photo by the way!

                                                                      Love, Sarina!
Title: Re: Small progress, in my dreams at least
Post by: Ms Grace on March 22, 2016, 05:02:32 AM
My dreams are vivid and have always been memorable. My brain is just wired that way I guess. The one thing I take away from all of it is that the mind switches to a more abstract, non linear mode of narrative and perception when you are dreaming. It processes thoughts and emotions and fears and hopes and metaphors and word play like in a blender or kaleidoscope. Some of that can convey very specific subconscious messages, generally I don't think it matters if we remember it when awake as it is for the lower levels of awareness to process anyway. Dreams are like legal/natural LSD experiences... they're just the brain tripping away... if you try to interpret them from a rational perspective you'll usually miss the mark. The best way to unravel them is to ask "how did I feel in the dream", "how do I feel about that?", "what does it remind me of in my life?".