I want to start this off with an introduction, so hello everyone :), my name is Jacob and I am 23 years old, about to be 24 in a week.
Here is a very recent picture of me, sorry for the filthy mirror - https://scontent-atl3-1.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-xpa1/t31.0-8/s960x960/12890993_981111268638602_2675408719591356325_o.jpg
Anyways..I have been researching a lot in the last few days with the MtF process, and have been debating going through HRT myself. I've always identified myself as a male, however, around the age of 14/15, I found myself wearing women's clothing and enjoying it immensely. It's always been a secret "life" though, not many people that are close with me know anything about it, anything I wear outside of the house is always under clothing. I've been struggling mentally lately with how I feel about everything. The thought of going through the transition brings a lot of joy, which is something that's been lacking lately. There is a lot of worries though, mostly involving the people around me. I worry about how they will react, judge, and the possibility of berating me. I also worry about not looking feminine enough as well. I think my face could be pretty feminine, besides the nose, it's small and I think I lack a lot of masculine features, and no I haven't shaved yet lol, sorry. I am looking for outside perspectives..and this seems like the perfect place for that. Any bit of information or advice would be appreciated, I appreciate honesty a ton :), thank you for your time!
Hey Aphyxion!
Welcome to Susan's :) Great to have you here - looking forward to seeing you around the forum.
Your fears and concerns about transition are common, but it is a process that takes many, many, many months and gives you time to sort out those other issues when you feel ready and able. First step should be to find a good therapist for a chat about your gender identity and what you might want to do about that.
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