Yesterday marked a huge day for me! My amazing friend took me out, in public, as my true self. I got to dress up, wear makeup, everything! And then we walked around a 24-hour supermarket around 10 pm for 45 minutes. I know it's small, but it's a start I guess. :)
Another step out into the world, each ones builds confidence for the next..
It feel wonderful, doesn't it? My first time out was just a few weeks ago, and I was surprised at how okay it was. Nobody acted like anything unusual was going on, I bought a purse that I needed and the cashier smiled at me and checked me out and I was on my way. Since then I've gone out a few more times, and haven't encountered any trouble. People are helpful and call me "ma'am" and I find myself wondering why on earth I didn't do this years ago.
Quote from: meganjames2 on April 08, 2016, 03:41:26 PM
Another step out into the world, each ones builds confidence for the next..
I hope so! :)
Quote from: Kelseyness on April 08, 2016, 03:50:51 PM
It feel wonderful, doesn't it? My first time out was just a few weeks ago, and I was surprised at how okay it was. Nobody acted like anything unusual was going on, I bought a purse that I needed and the cashier smiled at me and checked me out and I was on my way. Since then I've gone out a few more times, and haven't encountered any trouble. People are helpful and call me "ma'am" and I find myself wondering why on earth I didn't do this years ago.
It's weird! I'm a little confused, because there wasn't any sort of euphoric feeling. It just very very normal. I wasn't really nervous, and I didn't second guess much. It just felt like me in a supermarket. It felt so ordinary. Is that okay? I mean presenting male can feel like that too, but only because it's familiar. Familiar isn't always nice.
Quote from: RedheadWhovian on April 08, 2016, 04:09:50 PM
I hope so! :)
It's weird! I'm a little confused, because there wasn't any sort of euphoric feeling. It just very very normal. I wasn't really nervous, and I didn't second guess much. It just felt like me in a supermarket. It felt so ordinary. Is that okay? I mean presenting male can feel like that too, but only because it's familiar. Familiar isn't always nice.
I would put it this way. When I go out presenting as male, things feel familiar. I'm used to it. Been doing it for decades.
When I go out presenting as female, I feel like a person. And it feels normal. Like this is how it should be. How it should always have been.
A lot of times I am nervous. I'm wondering what other people think of me. Am I passing? Are people just being nice? But every now and then the nervousness passes, and I find myself out in the world, being myself, and it feels good. Not euphoric, but honest to goodness good. Like this is how it's supposed to be.
Quote from: Kelseyness on April 08, 2016, 05:21:12 PM
I would put it this way. When I go out presenting as male, things feel familiar. I'm used to it. Been doing it for decades.
When I go out presenting as female, I feel like a person. And it feels normal. Like this is how it should be. How it should always have been.
A lot of times I am nervous. I'm wondering what other people think of me. Am I passing? Are people just being nice? But every now and then the nervousness passes, and I find myself out in the world, being myself, and it feels good. Not euphoric, but honest to goodness good. Like this is how it's supposed to be.
I think that may be a more appropriate explanation of how I was! I don't know if I felt QUITE as good as that, but I did feel normal, and certainly not bad. :)
Congratulations. I am glad you enjoyed it.
I used to walk around in male mode wondering if people are staring at me and guessing my secret.
Now they just need to look at me and it is secret no more and I can walk around just being me and it just feels normal.
Plus clothes sizes are easier once you start using the change rooms to try things on.
Hugs
Jamie
That is fantastic congrats. I'm so happy for you. Supermarket was one of the first places I went as my authentic self too. Hugs
Mariah
Congrats! I'd recommend going out again, and soon. Try upping the ante a little bit each time. :)