It actually went a lot better than I thought it would. My therapist did not bother to educate my father on trans issues. It was obvious that no one at this point, not even my therapist, could talk some sense into my pops about what ->-bleeped-<- is. So instead, my therapist did something else I did not expect from him; he was getting to the underline issue as to why my dad is really against this.
It has a lot to do with the anger he has for my mom because about a decade ago, I went to live with her, along with my bro, and we cut off our dad for that whole period. It wasn't until a couple of years ago that I decided to move back in with him due to the declination of my mother's health and lack of familial support. At least now I know that my dad is not narcissistic. Rather, he is very stubborn, according to my therapist. I mean very few things did get through to my father.
For example, for the first time, he admitted that he knows my identity and expression is not a phase and something more. He is also aware that I desire testosterone, but he wants me gone when I start them because he just wants no part of it. My therapist, as intelligent as he is, tried to get my dad to realize the paradox in his expectations. What I mean is, my dad wants to help me but at the same time he does not want to help me because of the hormones.
If he kicked me out before I got myself together, he really would be contradicting himself. But as stubborn as my dad is, he just kept repeating how he wants no part of it and I need to find another place, even when the therapist kept asking, "Then where would Phoenix go?" My therapist even tried to figure out what was stopping my dad from calling me by the right name and pronouns. My dad said it's because those are not my assigned name and pronouns. He trusts more in that than my own individual judgment. Yes, I feel disrespected by him, as usual.
But some progress was made today. My dad even asked if my insurance would pay for the hormones as if to suggest some interest in it. Up until now, he never asked me anything about transitioning! I am finally getting somewhere with him! He wants to let me and my therapist work something out. He wants me to finish school and really get myself together.
My therapist excused my dad so we could be alone for a few minutes before our session ended. My therapist suggested me to shave while on T to make the physical changes a little less obvious, which I will do. But facial hair will not be the only thing that will change. Not that my dad would really care. I mean, the way I look now is a far cry from how I looked only two years ago and he does not make a big deal out of it. My therapist tried to explain to my dad that the hormones would help me get myself together, unlike anything else I have ever tried or anything my dad tried. That might be why he was interested about the hormones and asked if my insurance would pay for it, to which I answered, "yes."