Even though I plan on doing a lot of lurking and reading before opening my e-mouth to post anything I thought putting out a little info might be good for anyone wondering who am I and what do I want here (should I post).
I'm 23 years old, currently attending college full time, and have always felt a disconnect between my body's so-called gender and who I feel I am.
When I was a child I did not know about being transgendered, the world was full of boys or girls and I was just some unfinished piece. Later, as a young teen, when I learned about the term transgender I thought it meant people born physically between genders, so I thought that (transgender) couldn't be me because my body was whole, it was the intangible stuff which made me me that was not complete or matched that body.
Throughout High School I remember asking many friends if they thought I was more a guy or a gal and just, what was I? Because I thought I had to be one or the other, maybe someone else would know which one since I didn't. And they mostly dismissed my distress or ignored me, they were not purposely trying to hurt me but every single time I sincerely asked for help I got left feeling stupid...again.
So now, I find myself on a website trying to educate myself by seeing how others have lived and thought and felt. First things first you gotta set up your profile, I see that little gender icon to choose and I don't want to pick anything because then I'm stuck being one or the other. There is something so awesome when I find a new forum and begin to post, make friends, it seems like most of the people drawn to me are male who just want to bond with another guy. Then I don't want to lie, though I question if it is really a lie, so I tell them I am a gal. I hate it. It's the truth in part but it feels like a lie as well. Lying is abhorrent yet I lie every day with how I dress, act, or any other small life detail.
I guess the one thing I would name that I want and hope this site can help me to attain is to explore what transgender is and if I can find a way to be myself, at last.
Welcome and pleased to meet you. <shakes hand>
Looking forward to getting to know you.
Hello Id Est,
Welcome to Susan's.
Do explore this site and read but don't be just a lurker do ask question.
And you will learn allot more.
I remember when I first joined i wouldn't put a check by either gender just like you.
One of the greatest things about this site is that you can be yourself and people will accept you.
Again welcome and have a great read no I mean learning experience.
Jillieann
Hello there and welcome to Susan's!
Thanks very much for your introduction. Please take a few moments to get familiar with all the boards of the site, review the site rules (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,2.0.html)before posting, and take advantage of our many resources such as the wiki (https://www.susans.org/wiki/Main_Page), chat (https://www.susans.org/chat/index.html), and the links listed at the main page. (https://www.susans.org/index.html) We look forward to your future posts and participation. Enjoy your stay :)
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Quote from: Jillieann on October 21, 2007, 07:04:24 AM
Hello Id Est,
Welcome to Susan's.
Do explore this site and read but don't be just a lurker do ask question.
And you will learn allot more.
I remember when I first joined i wouldn't put a check by either gender just like you.
One of the greatest things about this site is that you can be yourself and people will accept you.
Again welcome and have a great read no I mean learning experience.
Jillieann
Suppose I can try to post a little. I am just unsure what to say. Suppose I'll work on that too ;)
Thank you for the posts everyone.
Id Est,
As long obey the site rules. Post any real question it's OK.
Your among friends. :)
Jillieann
Greetings, Id Est
Great to have you onboard. You are right that your education has now started. Jump into the discussions as you see them. You'll find out even more about yourself as you put your feelings in writing.
Again, welcome!
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Hello, Id, and welcome to Susan's!
You can post here from whatever point of view you so desire, male, female, not sure, queer and questioning. I hope that you take advantage of the experience and wisdom there is here among the members of all ages, teens and thirty-somethings, and those like me, in their mid-50s.
Be well,
Wing Walker
Hi and welcome to Susans. Feel free to ask any question that you have. We will help in any way that we can.
Gennee
:)
Thanks for the warm welcome everyone. Seriously, I was nervous about talking at all but now I don't feel so nervous. Take care, I'm off to be an active member :laugh:
Hi Id Est
Welcome to Susan's and please just relax and ask whatever questions you may have. If you are interested in in one specific post but don't feel comfortable making enquiries or asking questions on the board you may also send a PM. Click on the person's name scroll down and click on Send this member a personal message.
hello,
welcome to the site, look forward to seeing if you do find your way to yourself, could be 'citing.
Hello and Welcome Id Est :)
See you round the traps :)
buttercup :)
Welcome Id Est, hopefully you can work out some of your issues and feel more comfortable as yourself.