I wonder if my wife already knows that I plan to talk about MtF hormones. She has gotten real clingy lately, not that I mind because I love to cuddle.
I am also curious as to how long she has known what I have only recently figured out. Thinking back, she has commented on my "girly" crying at movies, playing only female characters on my video games, and has even asked about getting a Bra for my man boobs. I said no at the time, but now really wish I said yes.
I want to talk to a therapist before I do anything, just because I found out that there is a history of low T in my family, and if that is the cause of some of my thoughts, or if my fantasies that started back in my childhood are really me anting to be a woman.
Why is it I feel more confused the closer to my first therapy appointment? Is it fear? Is this common?
You might be reading her wrong. She may be feeling the pressure you are under and trying to comfort you or she could fear a divorce is in the works. As for your first therapy appointment, you are changing the direction of your life and that can be plenty scary for anybody.