my mother passed away a couple days ago, and I miss her already, she was very close to my wife, they were good friends, and I was always closer to my mother than my father. I miss her.
The last two years I struggled to come out and keep my marriage and figure out the future. Wanting so much to transition that I could taste it. Watching my mother take her last breaths and listening to my family post things on social media like "My mom lived her life to the fullest...burning bright...time and adventure worn her body out" made me realize that my mother would want me to live my life to the fullest too, to wear my body out, and have my children say "wow she really did it all...she lived the way she wanted to live"
my brothers won't get it, my dad will think I'm nuts (so I won't tell him, it is as simple as that). I will seize the day. And I will do it with authenticity, and respect for my love. My wife who through these last difficult years has said to me that she will go with me on this adventure. I have setup facial laser appointment, I have reached out to an endocrinologist today, and last week I ordered my first starter girl clothes :). I'm scared, but I'm excited. and I will honor my mother and myself by being authentic.