This is a very hard post to make. It saddens me deeply. Both for some of you and me.
You all have been very dear to me. Moreso than you think. And for longer than you think.
To start; I feel I would be banned after posting this but I plan to delete my membership anyway. I can't go on watching you all suffer from time to time and knowing if I really outed myself I would lose you guys, my church and so much more.
For starters you knew me as Tiffany Elise and I am a healed transgender. I still love that name and it is dear to me.
Tiffany Elise did indeed grow up transgender and went down the same road you all did in one area or another. There are no new stories here that shock me.
When I came here I was full of zeal and wanted everyone to be healed as well.
I was still on an emotional rollercoaster of events so many here share.
It was dear Tink that helped me that time and she will always remain on my mind. I posted a blog on Matthew 24 just for her out of gratitude for her loving spirit.
That blog I posted wasn't an ex-trans bashing blog.
It was the deep spiritual things in the word of God that many straight people scoff at. They're always trying to show how much they know and can't detect the proud spirit they have. They can't tell that the word of God is spiritually discerned and not revealed through studying. The spirit of man will only seek and reveal the things of man and the Spirit of God will seek and reveal the spiritual things in the word.
You, I, we, didn't make a choice to be transgendered.
What I do know about the cause and what healed me I will not reveal here and in no way is this meant to be a trans-bashing post. My healing was a spiritual work and not carnal nor psychological. That's all I'l say.
That was the reason for the blog. To post the deep spiritual things that are foolishness to the lost and sadly, the mainstream Christians. It wasn't to condone nor condemn transgenders/transsexuals. I had hoped for a spiritual work that I never saw transpire.
Christy was another inspiration. I hope that the Lord will bless her endeavors.
I can't keep visiting as Francis for the above listed reason as well as the fact that Francis is too close to my name. It's just not me.
Just for the record I personally believe most ex-trans/ex-gay ministries are led by people that do not have what it takes and may do more harm than good. Most who come out of them are suicidal from what I read. I don't want to be a part of that. I may have done too much damage here as it is.
And even if I was qualified, I want no part of an ex-anything ministry.
Tiffany Elise will always be a part of my life. Like ex-smokers and ex-gays, ex-trans people forget where they come from just like most Christians that judge and condemn forget where they came from and what they really are.
I can't forget. I still wear my Levis 537 jeans as a reminder that I can never look down my nose at others nor forget the grace of God in my life.
I wish all of you guys and gals well.
I hope that the good Lord above blesses you all in one way or another.
If you all no longer trust me or even hate me, I do understand.
Feel free to vent.
May God bless.
Francis / Tiffany Elise
How sad. C. S. Lewis used paths as a metaphor for progress toward your final goal. Mountain paths twist and turn and wind their way to their ends. But if you measure "as the crow flies" they frequently are taking you farther away from your goal. Today as you get farther away from your goal, I hope that you are either on the winding path that will eventually lead you to your true self or else that you will find the path that does one day. And may the Lover of all souls lift you up on eagles wings, bear you on the breath of dawn, make you to shine like the sun, and hold you in the palm of His hands.
Guys look hot in Levis 537, really brings the man out in their eyes..
My best wishes go with you.
Thank you for sharing your soul so openly with us...
~Kate~
I am happy the way I am and I hope that someday you find your own happiness, however that may come to you.
Dennis