Hi, Elena here and I am beginning my journey to becoming who I really am. I am a 45 yo MtF. I have been cross dressing for ages and while dressed I always wanted to BE a woman and never wanted to take my female clothes off. Of course once the clothes were off I would overcompensate in male mode. This year, something just clicked. I realized that I was transgendered and that I have been fighting this my entire life. I now plan to transition, albeit very slowly as I am primary caregiver to my mother who suffers from dementia. I dont want to do anything that would affect her in a negative way. I am also concerned that my father and my friends will disown me once I come out. I really do want to just transition and be done with it. I know I will never be an attractive woman but that doesnt matter. I want to eventually be as passable as a woman as I can. I eventually want to do electrolysis and facial feminization surgery so I will at least be passable at some point. Not sure if it will ever go for the "bottom" surgery but I will keep it in mind. I hope I havent bored you all with my life's story
Hi Elena!
Yes when the lightbulb goes on and the realization of what we manage to hide from ourselves becomes clear, it is quite the game changer!!! I wish you the best exploring the road ahead and where you need to take things to live the life that is right for you!!!
Take Care,
Ashley :)
Hi Elena,
Welcome, enjoy your changes. This is a great site with lots of support.
Hugs,
Heather
Thank you! I appreciate it.
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