As a number of you will know I have been having few hassles with some family issues. I have missed the last 3 monthly support meetings I can attend due to either being on holiday or having a complete meltdown like last week due to a call from my brother.
I was of the understanding there was another meeting at a community center in the City called the Carousel Club. Over the years I have attended this club maybe 3 or 4 times in last 30 years..so not exactly a frequent flyer. I was so fed up at feeling miserable I needed to get some nice clothes on and some makeup, do my hair and nails, got to show my girls off for the first time...well 50% was mine...maybe. Feeling pretty good in my new knee high boots leggings and tunic. I have a real issue with wiggs...they set my Dysphoria off...sometimes its ok if I am really on top of my game but if I am not feeling great then it becomes a nightmare.But tonight I navigate it well, Anyway I am set even had the GPS set and talking to me...
I find the Venue after an uneventful drive, then my suspicions are aroused because there is a young couple lounging around the front door with a young Kid...Hmmm no close parks but then I am about 30 minutes or so late..they do say from 7pm and it's only 7:30pm but Dark...Hmmmm no signs out that I can see. I finally find a park and I think I see another woman hustling for the same venue but I am not sure..yet it give me hope. I am in the right place...I think !
I get out of the car..not much street lighting...I have left my walking stick at home...this could be a bit tricky if my leg decides to play up...so I step out onto the path and about 150 meters up in the direction I need to go are two figures walking towards me..unmistakably male..unmistakeably intoxicated...gulp! Discretion is the better part of valour so I make a direct line for the opposite side of the road and into better light and a wide birth of my two intoxicated "friends". I make it to the venue and push the door open...Dam no meeting here, the only thing here is about 50 immigrants in two separate area's that looked like class rooms. It is a community centre so could even have been language classes. No signs no other trans people hanging out anywhere...none of the hard core smokers still going at it...NO meeting here!!. No one has really noticed me, even the guy sitting at the official kind of desk ignored me. Now I am just thinking...I need to get out of here as I am probably the only trans person at that venue tonight and since I already know how to speak English, not much point in me hanging around.
So I think to hell with this I didn't spend this much time to look and feel this good to waste it...so I turn on the music and decide to head for the only trans friendly venue I know thinking at worst I will get a good cup of coffee...no no where the hell am I?...great on the main road out of town heading for the main highway to Melbourne, pretty much as far from where I need to be as you could get...I give up I am going home.
An hour and a half after I left, 3 and half hours since I started to get ready and here I am back home and none the wiser...but there was one other thing that happened tonight...I caught another look at "her" in the mirror for a bit longer this time. :icon_giggle: :icon_giggle: So it certainly wasn't a waste of time after all now was it!!
Liz
Liz,
Congratulations. Not wasted at all.
With warmth,
Joanna
Hi Joanna
I should trust my own instincts more, instead of getting all wound up about driving, meeting new people, passing etc I was really relaxed about the whole thing. As soon as I got my "look" complete and was feeling comfortable I was ready and rearing to go. For the first time I didn't wear my breast forms and padded the girls till I was happy with the look. I felt much better without them, that sense of artificial/costume was greatly reduced...So I don't think I will bother with them again. They are really good quality and deserve a good home...
I have since found out the organisation responsible for holding the meeting is in some kind of disarray, no meeting information apparently the organisers have not been communicating what is happening. Don't know not likely to bother again.
You also had a win with passing in your new wig..you go girl!!
Hugs
Liz
Hi Liz
As always I love reading about your adventures.
Take care
Steff