So i guess i need to vent a little bit my GF of 12 years left me last week she ecouraged me to transition and now that im a few months in she said she cant walk this path with me and broke up with me but she acts like she's doing me a favor..... so i chose to use this oportunity to comeout to my mom when i told my mom she imediatly began crying and told me ive been talked into being transgender and that its not real i also got the i had a son not a daughter speach and that this stuff creeps her out. Why does this have to be so hard i want to be me but it seems like every time i take a step foward anouther part of my life takes 50 steps back i just wish i knew how to handel this stuff therapy helps but it still hurts so much inside i just hope it gets better at some point or im gonna do something that cant be fixed :( sry to who ever reads this it probably makes very little sence lol
It is incredibly painful to be rejected, unaccepted by those closest to us. They have a strong impression of us in our old roles, our old presentation, and will deny what we are, sometimes coming up with amazing rationalizations.
It hurts. It really hurts.
Worst of all is that they don't seem to see how their rejection hurts us.
My wife at one point claimed that I was just 'doing this' because I didn't have enough to keep me busy in retirement. She's claimed the therapist had convinced me I was trans. She thinks it is all about 'wearing those clothes', and has refused to listen to any actual medical information. It is very frustrating and bothersome.
You aren't alone. It really does hurt, and your feelings at being denied acceptance make sense. It's one of the nastiest parts of transition.