I've been living with my, now ex, wife for several months since I came out. I don't like and can't be the old me. She despises the new me in a biblical way. It has not been a fun place. I've balanced my transition so far to try to keep us both sane. I'm growing my hair out, painting my nails, wearing eye makeup and light foundation, using body sprays, shaving arms/legs/pits and just recently colored my hair. I wear women's jeans on a pretty regular basis and a few times added in nice tops for special events. As the Wanda has progressively climbed out of her genie bottle it has caused a bit of friction but, she ain't going back in this time ;D. So this week the ex finally got her financing together to buy my half of the house and set me FREEEEEE! I have my first laser on my face today. I see my gender doc for the first time on Tuesday. I can't start hormones until 2/9/16 due to HEP-C med study, ($94000 meds free in exchange, and I'm already virus free!), but I want to get established with her so I can start on that day. I move into a one bedroom apartment the 29th. I can sleep in panties and a nightshirt instead of ex friendly boy stuff. I can walk out of my home feeling completely like me! I am grateful though for the patience I have been forced to have to prepare me for this so I don't go crazy like I have done before. My friends tell me I am already gracefully embracing the classy mature Wanda I envision for myself. I hope and pray I can stay true to that now that the chains are off. Any advice and shared experience will be greatly appreciated at this point. I am thrilled, but a little nervous.
Glad you can be you! i rememeber when i came out the first time, May 12 2014... it was a feeling like no other. Being into the girl world in the outside is amazing.
Congratulations on your new found freedom! I predict that within a few months, Wanda will be a very happy person.
I went through something similar in October, moving out on a deadline and starting a new life as myself. After two months, I can definitely say that my mental well-being has improved immensely.
I've been dumping my experience over here:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,215456.0.html
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I also add congratulations! Being able to live as your heart needs to live is amazing. I would give a few cautions and a few encouragements. First, baby steps, not just for keeping balance and focus but also to be able to treasure the moments. Second, do you have much of a support group around you? I cannot begin to tell you how important those around me have been to the joy that I have been allowed to experience. This becoming a new person is not something easily done without the help of the proverbial village. Now the encouragements. For me the magic has been just so amazing. I have been running full speed into embracing each and every moment. There had been so many years of piling up so much emotional claptrap it almost feels too good to be free of "his" garbage and burdens. Celebrate and enjoy! - Anne