I've been thinking before testosterone i would post many things all scrambled together in what felt like a blob of text
with what felt like to me no true pattern. I understood what i wanted to say but it was very difficult to not make things out of order. I remember despising how iv'e written words before i went on Testosterone it drove me up a tree but i couldn't focus enough and i felt rushed even when there wasn't a reason or need to be or feel like i needed or had to rush, it was pointless. So i got to realizing and thinking while taking T iv'e not only been calmer which iv'e spoken about
but my typing doesn't feel like it's as scrambled or mixed together it doesn't make me feel like i'm needing to speed up.
Inside my brain it feels easier to explain things and put words into a neater and more easier context then before T started and it makes me more relaxed that in my writing not just personality or body. I'm curious as to if other's got this feeling.
Keep in mind iv'e always thought i was dysgraphic although i wasn't diagnosed but i have so much childhood proof in old work it's insane how it was over looked. But if i am then i got to question was i or was it the E or did it just basically improve a problem? although with all my spelling and grammar errors it's possible nobody will even recognize what i have been recognizing its hard to do when you're not in my brain or mindset. Although maybe i'm over thinking and getting at nothing but i swear on my life its fixed my writing
it's made me more capable of making sense then i was before hand.
(well i don't mean fixed as in words as much as i do the brain)
it was my brain that couldn't work words and sentences out.
I didn't necessarily have a problem expressing myself via writing pre-T, but my brain does feel more at ease on T which makes it easier to talk. T got rid of my social anxiety. Probably a similar thing.
Quote from: FTMax on January 16, 2017, 09:51:16 PM
I didn't necessarily have a problem expressing myself via writing pre-T, but my brain does feel more at ease on T which makes it easier to talk. T got rid of my social anxiety. Probably a similar thing.
I wish i could find science on this i'd be fascinated in knowing if i'm on to something or if you are and it may just be a at ease feeling and makes it easier.
I would say when things spring to my mind now, when I'm thinking or trying to get thoughts down, my brain is "more to the point" than it used to be.
I've never had writing problems, or thinking problems, but I reckon T makes thinking more efficient in some ways. If you prefer cutting the slack and thinking to an end result quicker that is.
Sounds like anxiety is what you were describing pre T.