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Title: Today for the first time....
Post by: Denise on February 12, 2017, 04:23:25 PM
I would like to start a thread to allow everyone to post their firsts.  I know over the last several months I just wanted to scream - Look I just ..... and survived. 

What did you just do (today, yesterday, recently) that you are excited that you took that step and, hopefully, survived.
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: Michelle_P on February 12, 2017, 05:02:29 PM
I just got my new birth certificate yesterday, with my correct name and gender. 


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Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: RachelH on February 12, 2017, 05:05:52 PM
Quote from: Michelle_P on February 12, 2017, 05:02:29 PM
I just got my new birth certificate yesterday, with my correct name and gender. 


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YAY FOR YOU!!!!!!  I am sooo happy for you! 
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: RachelH on February 12, 2017, 05:08:23 PM
My wife saw "me" for the first time last night!!  That was a huge step but now I must simply let her process.  The one thing she did say, " 'She' was not what I had pictured in my mind."  Which is a good thing since shortly after she said I looked very pretty! 
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: Amanda_Combs on February 12, 2017, 06:24:06 PM
Tomorrow is my first therapy appointment.


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Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: Janes Groove on February 12, 2017, 06:55:51 PM
Quote from: Michelle_P on February 12, 2017, 05:02:29 PM
I just got my new birth certificate yesterday, with my correct name and gender. 

Lucky you.  My state (Colorado) won't allow that until after SRS is complete.

A recent first: Driving. An unseasonably warm day. Windows down.  Another woman in traffic didn't like my driving and yelled, "Bitch!!!"
She was upset. I felt giddy.
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: Denise on February 12, 2017, 08:16:40 PM
Had lunch with a high school friend I've seen once in the last 37 years.  She was surprised and supportive.

Denise had dinner with my son, his girl friend, my nephew and his wife tonight - Not a single word about it.  So I guess they're accepting.
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: jgravitt01 on February 12, 2017, 09:44:55 PM
I went out last Wednesday afternoon as Jaime without makeup. Drove to Ulta for my first pro makeup job. (So I could observe and see what I could look like)
Went to the doctor for what I thought would be the beginning of my meds. (As Jaime in makeup and the new wig which looked terrible). Left without meds ( those come @ tomorrows appt.)
Left doctor went to salon for a wig styling and the stylist didnt
"clock" me until I told it was a wig in my deep James voice that snuck out. She was really helpful when styling my hair to fit my features.
Happy day!

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Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: AimlessRoman on February 13, 2017, 04:34:59 AM
I told the first person I was exploring my inner self & have been thinking about transitioning.
It was my nephew, he's only a couple years younger than I am and had a lot of questions, but I was happy to answer what I feel I want & what I know.
He seemed very supportI've and I'm so glad I was able to tell someone.
Two days ago I came up with a name for myself after reading through over 100.
Lexi I love that name so far and I'm going to keep looking but that's my front runner so far
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: Denise on February 13, 2017, 09:02:59 AM
Quote from: AimlessRoman on February 13, 2017, 04:34:59 AM
I told the first person I was exploring my inner self & have been thinking about transitioning.
...
That's a huge first!  Congratulations  How did it make you feel, after your heart stopped racing of course.
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: SophiaBleu on February 13, 2017, 11:06:11 AM
I am out to everyone EXCEPT work. That makes me happy!
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: Shy on February 13, 2017, 12:23:40 PM
Had a makeover at a large chemist full of shoppers and surrounded by curious onlookers. Came out with and empty purse, but enjoyed every minute of it.
For me this was something special, I have for most of my life lived up to my user name, I used to find it hard to even enter a store.
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: Rambler on February 13, 2017, 01:46:53 PM
I had the first of a year's worth of laser hair removal appointments this morning. The aesthetician was fantastic and kept me chatty and in good spirits the near hour and a half we were together. I ended up going for the full body because once you pay for the year's worth of unlimited treatments, you can do as much or as little of your body as you want. So I figured I might as well go all out, right? So she started zapping my face and worked her way down from there. Things got a little awkward in certain areas, but over all it was a pleasant experience, and I'm well on my way towards diminishing my body hair. I'll be doing appointments every 6 weeks from here out until February of 2018. It was much faster, and far less painless than I ever expected. And for those of you wondering, the laser was a Candela GentleLase, and the cryogen blasts along with the zaps is just AMAZING!!! Apparently it was on one of the higher she's bumping up the power next time because I didn't react to the laser as much as she expected for a first timer. I hope the next experience is just as pleasant!
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: jgravitt01 on February 13, 2017, 03:12:08 PM
Quote from: Rambler on February 13, 2017, 01:46:53 PM
I had the first of a year's worth of laser hair removal appointments this morning. The aesthetician was fantastic and kept me chatty and in good spirits the near hour and a half we were together. I ended up going for the full body because once you pay for the year's worth of unlimited treatments, you can do as much or as little of your body as you want. So I figured I might as well go all out, right? So she started zapping my face and worked her way down from there. Things got a little awkward in certain areas, but over all it was a pleasant experience, and I'm well on my way towards diminishing my body hair. I'll be doing appointments every 6 weeks from here out until February of 2018. It was much faster, and far less painless than I ever expected. And for those of you wondering, the laser was a Candela GentleLase, and the cryogen blasts along with the zaps is just AMAZING!!! Apparently it was on one of the higher she's bumping up the power next time because I didn't react to the laser as much as she expected for a first timer. I hope the next experience is just as pleasant!
That is fantastic! Hope it works better for you the next time. Curious about the cost got a year if you dont mind sharing? I'd like a comparison prove so when I shop the laser places in my area.

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Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: jgravitt01 on February 13, 2017, 03:13:30 PM
Quote from: Michelle_P on February 12, 2017, 05:02:29 PM
I just got my new birth certificate yesterday, with my correct name and gender. 


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That's great news...I know ot made you happy to have proper documentation!

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Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: jgravitt01 on February 13, 2017, 03:14:50 PM
Quote from: PaulaLee on February 12, 2017, 05:08:23 PM
My wife saw "me" for the first time last night!!  That was a huge step but now I must simply let her process.  The one thing she did say, " 'She' was not what I had pictured in my mind."  Which is a good thing since shortly after she said I looked very pretty!
Great step on the right direction. Hope you find way forward together.

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Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: CrystalMatthews0426 on February 13, 2017, 03:33:09 PM
I started therapy a few weeks ago and contacted a local laser hair removal place today. I'm very excited, but also very nervous. I should probably come out to my wife before going for my first laser, but I was looking at some of the links listed on here and found a place that is pretty close so I sent a message for info and they emailed me to schedule a free consultation.
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: Rambler on February 13, 2017, 06:36:30 PM
Quote from: jgravitt01 on February 13, 2017, 03:12:08 PM
That is fantastic! Hope it works better for you the next time. Curious about the cost got a year if you dont mind sharing? I'd like a comparison prove so when I shop the laser places in my area.

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I'm paying $2,000 for the years worth of sessions, as much of little of your body as you want and they recommend every 6-8 weeks. If for any reason you can't do a scheduled session, as long as you give advance notice, they will add it on at the end of the year to make sure you get your money's worth. I couldn't even find another place near me that offered deals like this, and comparable pricing for a single full body session would have been prohibitively expensive compared to this. I was told to expect a 1-2 day histamine reaction from the laser but haven't experienced it yet and it's been about 8 hours now. So I might be out of the woods, but any noticeable hair follicles are all crispy and curled inward and should start to fill out soon.
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: alexia on February 13, 2017, 08:31:55 PM
I had my first blood test with gender dysphoria written in the comments section.  It was also the first time I've seen gender dysphoria written in association with my name.  Soon HRT:)
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: jgravitt01 on February 13, 2017, 08:58:42 PM
Quote from: alexia on February 13, 2017, 08:31:55 PM
I had my first blood test with gender dysphoria written in the comments section.  It was also the first time I've seen gender dysphoria written in association with my name.  Soon HRT:)
Its a great feeling to see it written down, to know that its real and no longer a dream.

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Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: jgravitt01 on February 13, 2017, 09:02:50 PM
Today was my first self administered dose of Estradiol tomorrow will be my first Spironolactone dose as well.

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Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: Amanda_Combs on February 14, 2017, 01:13:20 PM
I think I got checked out by a creepy man.  He walked towards me while I was at work.  He looked about 80.  He stared at me; and looked me up and down.  I figured I must be in his way, so I moved.  He turned to leave, did a double-take back at me, leaned in and read the male name on my shirt.  He immediately left without another word.  Now I can only imagine the day when something like that is more annoying than exciting!  [emoji2]


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Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: KarynMcD on February 14, 2017, 02:00:48 PM
Quote from: alexia on February 13, 2017, 08:31:55 PM
I had my first blood test with gender dysphoria written in the comments section.

Mine say something like "hormonal imbalance."
Yeah, too much testosterone and not enough estrogen.  ;)
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: Michelle_P on February 14, 2017, 02:24:08 PM
Amanda, for the first time you gave an 80 year old dude something new in his life to complain about!  (It's his problem, not yours.  If he can't handle people that aren't just like him, he probably shouldn't leave the house, because the whole wide world is different.)


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Title: Both bad and good here today
Post by: josie76 on February 14, 2017, 04:54:59 PM
Well I'll start with the good, went to my first endocrinologist appointment, took my first Estrace, Spironolactone, and finsinrade pills today.

My wife and I had our worst fight in years this morning. For the first time she decided to stay at her moms. We've been in a rough place for a while again. We had talked about spending some time apart before. Well she said maybe we should spend some time apart before. I hope we can both cool off and come back together. God I'm not sure this time though.  :'(
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: RobynD on February 14, 2017, 05:44:08 PM
Quote from: Michelle_P on February 12, 2017, 05:02:29 PM
I just got my new birth certificate yesterday, with my correct name and gender. 


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So Awesome! Congrats
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: jgravitt01 on February 16, 2017, 04:04:41 PM
Today for the first I after my makeup tutorial at Ulta I did my makeup and took pictures.Did I do ok? (https://uploads.tapatalk-cdn.com/20170216/e57a7530b4b0505af5743485701f8e34.jpg)(https://uploads.tapatalk-cdn.com/20170216/229f118448e0dd02cca89c8195517dfb.jpg)

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Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: Angela Drakken on February 16, 2017, 04:41:46 PM
Quote from: jgravitt01 on February 16, 2017, 04:04:41 PM
Today for the first I after my makeup tutorial at Ulta I did my makeup and took pictures.Did I do ok? (https://uploads.tapatalk-cdn.com/20170216/e57a7530b4b0505af5743485701f8e34.jpg)(https://uploads.tapatalk-cdn.com/20170216/229f118448e0dd02cca89c8195517dfb.jpg)

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Nailed it. 100%
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: Michelle_P on February 16, 2017, 04:44:42 PM
Quote from: jgravitt01 on February 16, 2017, 04:04:41 PM
Today for the first I after my makeup tutorial at Ulta I did my makeup and took pictures.Did I do ok?

You did just fine.  That looks really good, like a polished everyday look.  Nice choices!
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: jgravitt01 on February 16, 2017, 05:39:28 PM
Thank you Angela & Michelle. It only took about 30 minutes..surprised myself.

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Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: Denise on February 17, 2017, 08:46:44 AM
There is a local LGBTQ group in my small town.  I went last night for the first time.  Myself and 4 others plus a licensed therapist and an intern.

Not the experience I intend to frequent since I was the only "T".  Nice people, but not what I had expected.
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: Rambler on February 17, 2017, 01:06:24 PM
This isn't so much about taking big steps, but yesterday for the first time, I saw her looking back at me when I took a glimpse in the mirror. I've seen the real me before when presenting totally female, wig, makeup & the like, but never when I was totally dressed down with a beard shadow & boy clothes. Something about the look in my eyes or the smile on my face just seemed to bring Libbey out! Or maybe I'm finally just starting to settle into my own skin.
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: JeanetteLW on February 17, 2017, 01:11:48 PM
Started using facial moisturizer and night cream.
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: Shy on February 17, 2017, 02:34:05 PM
Found myself walking, heal to toe with hands resting high and across my tummy in a very casual, feminine way.
Nothing planed, nothing forced just being normal, natural, going about my business. Until I did of course... think about it. But it's nice to know i'm getting comfortable in my skin. It felt like a moment.
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: Denise on March 03, 2017, 01:21:32 PM
Went full time yesterday and today i went to stores that I frequented while <old-name>.  Most of the people there know me.  Ma'am 100%.  :)

Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: KarynMcD on March 03, 2017, 01:54:13 PM
Awesome!
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: AlyssaJ on March 03, 2017, 01:59:37 PM
Well it was a couple days ago, but I went out to a store in full female presentation with no one with me and no safety nets whatsoever. Following my therapist appointment (which always attend now presenting as the real me) I went over to a nearby Ulta Beauty store. Spent 30 minutes looking at blush, bronzer, eye shadow and working with a sales rep to find the right shade of concealer. Was treated with absolute respect and genuine friendliness. So great.

I've been out in public before but always with someone. I've been out on my own, but only in fairly safe places like church.  I've been out by myself in public in mixed presentation (wearing high heeled boots with skinny jeans but no attempt to feminize from the waist up).  However, this was the first time for being in a completely public place, by myself, full presentation, without any safety net.  Felt so good to just be me out doing an everyday task without any real concern.
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: Maybebaby56 on March 03, 2017, 02:23:39 PM
I am a little late to this thread, but I got myself a manicure and pedicure for the first time in my life a couple of weeks ago. I loved it! I left with beautiful long French-tipped gel nails and bright red toenails.

~Terri
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: Denise on March 03, 2017, 03:25:09 PM
Quote from: Maybebaby56 on March 03, 2017, 02:23:39 PM
I am a little late to this thread, but I got myself a manicure and pedicure for the first time in my life a couple of weeks ago. I loved it! I left with beautiful long French-tipped gel nails and bright red toenails.

~Terri

Wasn't it fun?  What color gel on the fingers?

  I'm sorry I don't know your status in life - are you full time?  I would have hated to get a manicure unless it was going to stay more than a few hours.  (I'm having one tomorrow or Sunday so my first day in the office...)
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: CarlyMcx on March 03, 2017, 04:02:54 PM
I went out the door in full on girl mode without any makeup (I couldn't wear any because my upper lip is still swollen from last night's laser hair removal session).

I went to my 9 month endo appointment and later picked up some lunch for my wife and myself.  We will also be doing some shopping later this evening. 

I've finally reached the point where I feel comfortable (if not totally passable) without laying on the foundation with a trowel.
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: AnneK on March 03, 2017, 04:36:14 PM
Quote from: Maybebaby56 on March 03, 2017, 02:23:39 PM
I am a little late to this thread, but I got myself a manicure and pedicure for the first time in my life a couple of weeks ago. I loved it! I left with beautiful long French-tipped gel nails and bright red toenails.

~Terri

Congrats!!!

I've been getting manicures and pedicures for years and always enjoy them.
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: Maybebaby56 on March 03, 2017, 06:44:38 PM
Quote from: Denise on March 03, 2017, 03:25:09 PM
Wasn't it fun?  What color gel on the fingers?

  I'm sorry I don't know your status in life - are you full time?  I would have hated to get a manicure unless it was going to stay more than a few hours.  (I'm having one tomorrow or Sunday so my first day in the office...)

Hi Denise,

I am full-time. Here are my nails:

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi.imgur.com%2FAYFNZ2R.jpg&hash=b3168ab257e511919edefa8e08f963f0cdb8e957)

I have wanted to do this for 30 years. Back when I used to dress secretly, I would glue on acrylic nails, and paint them lovingly and admire them for a few hours- and then absolutely butcher my nail bed trying to get them off.

Finally, I don't have to worry about taking them off. This ranks up there with getting my ears pierced.  Maybe even more so.  Long nails are unmistakably feminine, and I love them.

~Terri
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: JeanetteLW on March 04, 2017, 12:04:42 AM
This evening for the first time ever I :
   (1) Went to a support meeting for trans women
   (2) Met Tessa another Susan's Place member
   (3) Was out in public as Jeanette interacting with others
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: Daniellekai on March 04, 2017, 12:08:14 AM
I told my mom, left another message with the psychologist who still hasn't gotten back to me (next call goes to a different one, lol), and I'm learning what I'm really like, since I suppressed it so hard I didn't really have a "self" before...
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: Denise on March 05, 2017, 09:32:52 PM
I went full-time last Thursday night.  Since then these firsts:
1) Hung out with an old friend who only screwed up pronouns once with someone else.  (not bad.)
2) Went to the local YMCA (I don't use the locker rooms) for a spin class.  (The pedals still went around :) )
3) Went to the local grocery store (They took my money with a smile and the food tastes the same!)
4) Went to our local pizza joint for dinner.  (Our order came out just as it usually does, with a smile)

Basically a non-event weekend.  Let see how the first day on the job goes.  Should be uneventful too.
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: JeanetteLW on March 05, 2017, 09:43:56 PM
  Wishing you a wonderful first day at work Denise. Will be waiting for a full report after.

  Hugs,
    Jeanette
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: Michelle_P on March 05, 2017, 09:45:52 PM
Uneventful is good.  👍

May work be appropriately boring as well. 😉
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: Tessa James on March 05, 2017, 09:59:42 PM
I received an email thanking me and other members of a conference we attended for being out and supporting LGBTQ youth  They also thanked us for unknowingly helping them to decide on coming out trans too.  New brothers and sisters every day.

One big wahoo for an activist ;D
Title: Re: Today for the first time....
Post by: Alexbn on March 05, 2017, 10:01:31 PM
Although I crossdress fulltime,my family said they see me as a daughter and sister more for the first time today.I did tear up a little bit and told them thank you.