Soooo, hi.
Im new to forums and blogs and stuff so please bare with me.
My name is justin, im 32, i dont quite know where i fit.
I was a boy when i was little. Toy guns. Gi joes. Hot wheels. I also used to try to where my moms pumps. Tried to use crayon as lipstick. Around 12, 13 i was hanging out with my female friends way more than my male friend. Id go with them to the mall and when theyd be looking through clothes id get sad because i like some of the things i saw but didnt want to say anything because i wasnt gay and felt thats how id be painted. I was into goth and punk so i could get away with painting my nails black through highschool. After that i never felt safe or confident enough to explore myself. I got in to drugs, no addiction but i wasnt being productive or healthy either. Now im with someone who knows this part of me and still loves me. Its giving me the confidence and safety to try and figure this out. I dont feel like a woman trapped in a mans body. I dont feel like i need everyone to accept me as a woman. Im not terribly attached to my masculinity, even though i still find myself butching up in the presence of men. I dont think of myself as gay but i think being with a man would feel wonderful if i didnt have a penis and felt attractive.
Ive never been to therapy but im trying to get that worked out.
I know thats kind of a lot and i dont use a lot of punctuation. I think i spilled my guts enough. Whoever reads this, thanks for listening.
I know i forgot some things but i think you get the gist
Quote from: justjoy on March 08, 2017, 06:54:41 PM
Soooo, hi.
Im new to forums and blogs and stuff so please bare with me.
My name is justin, im 32, i dont quite know where i fit.
Now im with someone who knows this part of me and still loves me. Its giving me the confidence and safety to try and figure this out. I dont feel like a woman trapped in a mans body. I dont feel like i need everyone to accept me as a woman. Im not terribly attached to my masculinity, even though i still find myself butching up in the presence of men. I dont think of myself as gay but i think being with a man would feel wonderful if i didnt have a penis and felt attractive.
Ive never been to therapy but im trying to get that worked out.
I know thats kind of a lot and i dont use a lot of punctuation. I think i spilled my guts enough. Whoever reads this, thanks for listening.
Hi Justin,
I'm Jeanette, unofficial Susan's Place greeter. I'm glad you decided to stop in and visit. You're sure welcome here. And so is your friend. Come in, come on in and have a seat, get yourself a drink, take your shoes off (unless you have stinky feet. Heck what I'm trying to say is make yourself comfortable not too many of us bite. Well not unless we're asked to. Read some posts, get to know us, make a comment or two or three or...
I'm glad you told us a little about yourself. How the heck are we going to get to know you if you don't. So you liked some girly things when you were younger and would have like some pretty things for yourself? Well let me tell you, you are not alone in that. I grew up with 5 sisters and I wanted a lot of the pretty things the had and wanted to do things they could do but I was a boy :( After my older brother left home I was "The" boy. I did have "access" to try some of their things on at times. I remember once hiding under my sheet in bed with a dress on when some one came into my room. I turned into a life long cross dresser.
I never felt like a woman trapped in a mans body. I didn't feel like i needed everyone to accept me as a woman either. I have fairly recently discovered that I did want to be a woman back then and even more so now, but I still have my periods of doubting myself. I was married and I preferred a passive role in bed and would fantasize I was the one receiving. When umm pleasuring myself, I would imagine myself in the female role with a man, though I have never wanted a relationship with a man, they were but a means to an end. I admit to being curious to how it would feel though.
I haven't met with a gender therapist yet but that is in the works. Last December I decided to start HRT.
Well anyway there, a little tit for tat. You now know a little about me as I now know a little about you. That's how this thing works. You share yourself with us and we share with you. Ask your questions, we'll try to help by giving you information or telling you what we did or what we would do. We''l share with you how things affected our lives if that is what you need to know. There are a lot of good people on Susan's and we all want you here. We want to help if you'll let us.
Welcome again, welcome home
Hugs,
Jeanette
Welcome to Susan's Place. We had a thread running over a year ago where people responded about how they felt before they started their transition. None of the people said they felt like a woman trapped in a mans body. Instead they said they want to become a woman. People who are transgender don't always exhibit the same feeling but we still tell a similar story where we are uncomfortable in our present gender. I am going to give you my two standard links for people in self discovery. The first is our WIKI (https://www.susans.org/wiki/Transgender) where ->-bleeped-<- is discussed. The second is "the transition channel" (https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCfO3B57E6NpIn-KsVjvmLLw) where a gender therapist will discuss transsexualism in more detail. Feel free to ask questions as this is what this site is all about.
We issue to all new members the following links so you will best be able to use the web site.
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Hi Justin :icon_wave:
Welcome to Susan's Place :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
Hugs
V M
Hi, I just wanted to say welcome too
Kirsa
Quote from: justjoy on March 08, 2017, 06:54:41 PM
I was into goth and punk so i could get away with painting my nails black through highschool. After that i never felt safe or confident enough to explore myself. I got in to drugs, no addiction but i wasnt being productive or healthy either.
Hi Justin, you sound a lot like me!
I used to be into goth back when I was 15-16ish, just to paint my nails black, and wear "pseudo-feminine" clothes. But I was never really into the music. You seem more comfortable with yourself than I am though.
Welcome.
Like i said, im new to forum posting. I dont mean to not reply at all the welcoming replies. I just dont know if anyone will even see it or is there a way to directly respond? Anyways, thank you all.
We see them Justin. We see them. ;D
There is a way to correspond to an individual. You can click on their name then in the page that follows below their avatar you'll see the link to send a PM
Hugs,
Jeanette
Hi v m, kirsa, kylie. Sorry, still figuring the site out. Omg "the transition channel", i dont know how i never found this, possibly the most helpful and affirming thing ive ever seen/heard 😂. Thank you so much for the help jeanette and dena.
Quote from: justjoy on March 08, 2017, 06:54:41 PM
Soooo, hi.
Im new to forums and blogs and stuff so please bare with me.
My name is justin, im 32, i dont quite know where i fit.
I was a boy when i was little. Toy guns. Gi joes. Hot wheels. I also used to try to where my moms pumps. Tried to use crayon as lipstick. Around 12, 13 i was hanging out with my female friends way more than my male friend. Id go with them to the mall and when theyd be looking through clothes id get sad because i like some of the things i saw but didnt want to say anything because i wasnt gay and felt thats how id be painted. I was into goth and punk so i could get away with painting my nails black through highschool. After that i never felt safe or confident enough to explore myself. I got in to drugs, no addiction but i wasnt being productive or healthy either. Now im with someone who knows this part of me and still loves me. Its giving me the confidence and safety to try and figure this out. I dont feel like a woman trapped in a mans body. I dont feel like i need everyone to accept me as a woman. Im not terribly attached to my masculinity, even though i still find myself butching up in the presence of men. I dont think of myself as gay but i think being with a man would feel wonderful if i didnt have a penis and felt attractive.
Ive never been to therapy but im trying to get that worked out.
I know thats kind of a lot and i dont use a lot of punctuation. I think i spilled my guts enough. Whoever reads this, thanks for listening.
I'm so glad I opened this thread. I recently joined and opened a thread of my own and this red bolded part of your speech really got to me! I feel the same way and thought this was something that wasn't OK with being transgender, now I see that it's fairly normal to not feel like a woman trapped in a man's body.
Quote from: Dena on March 08, 2017, 07:55:40 PM
Welcome to Susan's Place. We had a thread running over a year ago where people responded about how they felt before they started their transition. None of the people said they felt like a woman trapped in a mans body. Instead they said they want to become a woman. People who are transgender don't always exhibit the same feeling but we still tell a similar story where we are uncomfortable in our present gender. I am going to give you my two standard links for people in self discovery. The first is our WIKI (https://www.susans.org/wiki/Transgender) where ->-bleeped-<- is discussed. The second is "the transition channel" (https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCfO3B57E6NpIn-KsVjvmLLw) where a gender therapist will discuss transsexualism in more detail. Feel free to ask questions as this is what this site is all about.
We issue to all new members the following links so you will best be able to use the web site.
Things that you should read
Site Terms of Service & Rules to Live By (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,2.0.html) | Standard Terms & Definitions (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,54369.0.html) | Post Ranks (including when you can upload an avatar) (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,114.0.html.) |
Reputation rules (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,18960.0.html) | News posting & quoting guidelines (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,174951.0.html) | Photo, avatars, & signature images policy (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,59974.msg383866.html#msg383866) |
Thanks for the info Dena!