now im not sure that this belongs here so if its better suited else where please move it :D
i never fully realized what or who i was until recently, looking back i find that my earliest form of denial and compartmentization was thinking one day while fully awake:
am i really i boy or am i actually a mistake? i shurged it off and as rationale my concious thought changed to maybe in some parrall universe there is a female version of me and maybe somehow i feel her presnce i wonder if she realizes me?
rofl now this is off the wall and seems so silly for me to post but this is the earliest denial i can think of. and even now i fight the urge to supress the true me but i know that things will never be ok until i face the facts and acknowledge who i am mind and soul and accept that im not who i outwardly appear to be.
now jsut to get to the point that i can acknowledge who i reall am to the people that matter :-\ but im still a ways from that my first therapy session is comming up and although not specifically gender therapy ill atleast have a chance to talk about it and come out to somebody face to face and confront my issues.
that being said i hope they have atleast heard of gid and are somewhat informed lol oh well play the wait and see and what if games until then.. sorry this seems so pointless after typeing it but it should be interesting to see how others relate to it or if my early rationalization and denial is something that is specific to me