When I see a girl , it's kinda like I am somewhat attracted at times but other times it's like I want to be wearing what they are wearing or be them in general. I don't understand it quite at all but its always been like that for me , well as a small kid just the latter two parts.
When I look at a girl I wonder how I compare to her. I can also appreciate female beauty but I am not attracted to it at all.
When I look at a guy if he is handsome then I wonder what he is like in bed. Im not saying I would act on that or even want to sleep with him. That's just one of the thoughts that goes through my mind when I see a handsome guy.
When I see guys I'm usually thinking, he looks cool, omg he's so well dressed (and commence to analyse what I could use from his style to make myself look more sharp and masculine), wow he's so beautifully masculine or I could style him better. Unless he's really ugly and scruffy in which case I'm thinking very little. I look at guys a lot.
When I see girls I think... if its the average girl, generally not too much really. I don't look at them as carefully as guys a lot of the time because I like to analyse guy's outfits and masculinity. Unless of course she's attractive then I get a little mesmerised and want to catch her eye and maybe reach out and touch her in some weird way. Im a weirdo. If she's masculine presenting I'll probably admire her style and think she's cool and that I must have something to learn from her or something in common. Also possibly be attracted as well. If she's super hyper stereotypically feminine and cutesy I am probably gonna be looking at her with some confusion and slight disdain and avoid her. If she seems sort of masculine but like she's comprimising with feminine bits of clothing and it looks messy and like she's stopped caring, I sympathise with that and think about how I could style her better as with the messy guys.
I flirt with women when I can pass, while sitting in my car or at work where I wear a uniform. When my woman fearures aren't as obvious. I often get smiles back.
When I see men I compare myself to them.
I'm attracted to softer guys and girls. No bears or butches.
Kalarran,
Similar to you, I have a mixed feeling when looking at women. I am attracted to women, and will sexually objectify them in my mind, but I'll also make note of what their wearing. Sometimes I will think about how it feels to be them. Sometime I imagine what it's like to have their body, other times i just imagine what it's like to wear their clothes. Like, for really beautiful glamorous women, I imagine this wonderful glamorous power that is projected by one who can wear like they mean it. But this also applies to women of many different shapes and sizes and styles.
Of course, I try to do all of this in the space of a glance, because I don't want to be a creeper ;) I was told by some girlfriends in the past that it's okay to look, it's just not okay to stare :) I just hope I'm even half as subtle as I think I am, because I really don't want to make other people uncomfortable.
When I see a good looking woman, I also wish that I had their body.
I always check out well dressed women so that I can check out what they are wearing and try to buy the same when I go shopping.
I live about 80% of the time female while transitioning so you know the eyes your looking through.
For women I pretty much check them out, what their wearing, make up etc. Im always looking at style and how she carries herself. Im always looking for better ways to dress and carry myself. No lie I am a bit catty as well. I have said a few times OMG how can she be wearing that.
For guys pretty much the same thing, what they are wearing etc. Are they attractive, clean and so on.
Im Bi so if you look good and my type you may get a tap on the shoulder.
Huggs Niki Marie
Since I can remember I've wanted to be female. I'm enamored with the female body. So when I see an attractive female , my first thoughts are I wish I looked like her. I start to think of what I'd look like with her breasts , butt , legs , etc. I look at what they wear and wonder how it feels to wear those beautiful female clothes as a women.
I'm not attracted to men but an attractive guy makes me explore thoughts of how it must feel to be in a relationship with a good looking guy as a female.
If it was possible to morph back and forth between male and female I just might break the "morph" button.
I would definitely spend the majority of my time as a women.
Karrie