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Community Conversation => Transitioning => Hormone replacement therapy => Topic started by: link5019 on May 26, 2017, 02:26:39 PM

Title: Feeling like I stalled
Post by: link5019 on May 26, 2017, 02:26:39 PM
So over the past 2 - 3 months or so I felt like I've sort of stalled, or well things slowed wayyyyyyy down. I know I had a moment back around my half a year where for about a month or two things sort of stopped for a bit which is normal, but then sped back up, but over the past 2 - 3 months things have shown no sign of well speeding back up. My doctor did increase my Bio-P dose back in march, and I've been on the same E dose since the beginning. So maybe it was time to up the dose? I don't know if this is just a period of time where things don't really happy and it'll start back up or if it's honestly me stalling out and needing to up my E dose. Along side everything else, I have felt more dysphoric as well. And to clarify I'm not asking about doses I'm asking if stalling is a thing and if it sounds like I stalled or something.
Title: Re: Feeling like I stalled
Post by: JB_Girl on May 26, 2017, 02:58:41 PM
You might find it helpful to think to transition as a process and a marathon rather that a series of milestones in a sprint.  You've been on the path to your authentic self for a while and on HRT for a year and change.  I'll betcha that when your body began to respond to the medications you kind of flipped for joy.  When it came time to celebrate a year on this journey I expect that you reflected on what was yet to come. 

Your body will continue to change for years yet. As will your emotions and your self image.  To be "stuck" after the revelations that you have seen so far is to know that the rate of change which has been given  to you has shifted, but It will shift again and again and again.  To seek who you are is a journey of a thousand leagues.  It takes a while but keep walking, you'll get there.

Peace
JB
Title: Re: Feeling like I stalled
Post by: Angélique LaCava on May 26, 2017, 02:59:24 PM
After 9 months for me things slowed down tremendously, but slowly kept changing and I mean slowly. I've only grown like 10% in my breast size in the past 8 months.
Title: Re: Feeling like I stalled
Post by: link5019 on May 26, 2017, 03:32:30 PM
Quote from: Angélique LaCava on May 26, 2017, 02:59:24 PM
After 9 months for me things slowed down tremendously, but slowly kept changing and I mean slowly. I've only grown like 10% in my breast size in the past 8 months.

For me it really slowed down in March when I hit one year.  Though I also increased my P dose at that time too.

Quote from: JB_Girl on May 26, 2017, 02:58:41 PM
You might find it helpful to think to transition as a process and a marathon rather that a series of milestones in a sprint.  You've been on the path to your authentic self for a while and on HRT for a year and change.  I'll betcha that when your body began to respond to the medications you kind of flipped for joy.  When it came time to celebrate a year on this journey I expect that you reflected on what was yet to come. 

Your body will continue to change for years yet. As will your emotions and your self image.  To be "stuck" after the revelations that you have seen so far is to know that the rate of change which has been given  to you has shifted, but It will shift again and again and again.  To seek who you are is a journey of a thousand leagues.  It takes a while but keep walking, you'll get there.

Peace
JB

That's very true....but I guess I'm just wondering if it's a shift because of biological reasons or a shift because levels need to be adjusted.
Title: Re: Feeling like I stalled
Post by: Angélique LaCava on May 26, 2017, 03:55:29 PM
Quote from: link5019 on May 26, 2017, 03:32:30 PM
For me it really slowed down in March when I hit one year.  Though I also increased my P dose at that time too.

That's very true....but I guess I'm just wondering if it's a shift because of biological reasons or a shift because levels need to be adjusted.
nope, it's just how hormones work. Some go really fast the first year then slow down,some go really slow the first year and then speed up. Just depends on the individuals genetics.
Title: Re: Feeling like I stalled
Post by: link5019 on May 26, 2017, 04:17:05 PM
Quote from: Angélique LaCava on May 26, 2017, 03:55:29 PM
nope, it's just how hormones work. Some go really fast the first year then slow down,some go really slow the first year and then speed up. Just depends on the individuals genetics.
True, but I wouldn't think it would just slow down to basically a stop. Cause that's the thing is I haven't seen any real developments in the past 3 months which is what concerns me.
Title: Re: Feeling like I stalled
Post by: Angélique LaCava on May 26, 2017, 04:23:23 PM
Quote from: link5019 on May 26, 2017, 04:17:05 PM
True, but I wouldn't think it would just slow down to basically a stop. Cause that's the thing is I haven't seen any real developments in the past 3 months which is what concerns me.
thats how it was for me and then after like 13 months of being on hrt the changes started happening again, but slower than before. I've actually started doing my pills sublingually to see if it helps any because it makes the dosage of the pills higher.
Title: Re: Feeling like I stalled
Post by: link5019 on May 26, 2017, 04:37:53 PM
Quote from: Angélique LaCava on May 26, 2017, 04:23:23 PM
thats how it was for me and then after like 13 months of being on hrt the changes started happening again, but slower than before. I've actually started doing my pills sublingually to see if it helps any because it makes the dosage of the pills higher.
True, I've been on it for 14 months at this point and thinks have felt like they stopped at 12 months or just slowed to a stop. It seems like you doing it under the tongue has helped a lot, and jump-started it but I'm not too keen on doing it sublingual. So it might just be a period of nothing happening and needing to wait a bit or increasing my dose might help too.
Title: Re: Feeling like I stalled
Post by: kelly_aus on May 27, 2017, 12:18:57 AM
Development doesn't happen in a straight, continuous line.. It will have peaks and valleys where things seem faster and slower.
Title: Re: Feeling like I stalled
Post by: link5019 on May 27, 2017, 04:33:26 AM
Quote from: kelly_aus on May 27, 2017, 12:18:57 AM
Development doesn't happen in a straight, continuous line.. It will have peaks and valleys where things seem faster and slower.
So the consensus here sounds like it's not necessarily a stall and adding more E is not necessary either. Though adding E isn't going to harm anything either it sounds like too
Title: Re: Feeling like I stalled
Post by: Angélique LaCava on May 27, 2017, 11:45:14 AM
Quote from: link5019 on May 27, 2017, 04:33:26 AM
So the consensus here sounds like it's not necessarily a stall and adding more E is not necessary either. Though adding E isn't going to harm anything either it sounds like too
technically people say adding more E won't do anything more. As long as your hormones are in female range no matter how high they are won't make a difference.
Title: Re: Feeling like I stalled
Post by: link5019 on May 27, 2017, 02:36:33 PM
Quote from: Angélique LaCava on May 27, 2017, 11:45:14 AM
technically people say adding more E won't do anything more. As long as your hormones are in female range no matter how high they are won't make a difference.

That's true, but there is an ideal range. I know that normally during everyday before the addition of Progesterone, my E levels were 170 - 200 pg/ml. Then with the addition of P it went down to around 130 - 160pg/ml, and then my doctor upped my dose of P back in march so my levels fell a bit more. While it's still within female range, it's below the optimal level which could cause a stall effect.
Title: Re: Feeling like I stalled
Post by: Dani on May 27, 2017, 02:49:05 PM
Quote from: link5019 on May 26, 2017, 02:26:39 PM
I don't know if this is just a period of time where things don't really happy

Happy?? or did you mean happen?

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I have felt more dysphoric as well..

This would be my main concern. Physical changes happen so slowly, we usually tell the new girls, continue for a full 3 years, then go from there.

But if the dysphoria is returning, that is not good.

You really need to have a long talk with your doctor.
Title: Re: Feeling like I stalled
Post by: link5019 on May 27, 2017, 04:18:25 PM
Quote from: Dani on May 27, 2017, 02:49:05 PM
Happy?? or did you mean happen?

This would be my main concern. Physical changes happen so slowly, we usually tell the new girls, continue for a full 3 years, then go from there.

But if the dysphoria is returning, that is not good.

You really need to have a long talk with your doctor.
I meant happen XD sorry for the typo. And true, they do usually happy pretty slow, and well being a year and some change in I should expect that by now, but yeah...the dysphoria has been more frequent as of late. I did message my doctor and she said at this point increasing my dose may be a good idea to help improve levels and see how it effects the second puberty.  And in general she told me 3 - 5 years for development much like a cis woman so there's that too.