Though I might share this
After weeks of doom gloom & more doom I've, managed slowly to get my are of of my head & except that I am trans, so I've mange several LBGT meeting where I have met some wonderful human beings & make one or new friendly on the way.
One new friend MTF I got invited around to there home, so I went armed with 101 questions, the out come her wife has told me she what's to give me a full make over & commented that I look more femme than most cis woman my body shape is good my face, hair but I still feel I don't, is this the dysphoria! Also so was meant to start HRT in a few weeks but yet again another cock up on the results ( thank you NHS ).
But on the good side I,m started to live a little more as Sara taking each day at a time & if I don't look like a beauty Queen then so be it, so no rant this time just a few words. Sara
Sara!!!...
Now this is the kind of post I've been waiting for sister!!!... You've been quiet the last few days and I worry about you like a mother hen more than you'll ever know!
Sounds like you are building up your local support and that is so great!!! Keep doin' what your doin' girl ... All will be well :)
And please... One favor for your sister in California?... Get rid of that depressing avatar!!! We are on a journey of hope here and that negative stuff is baggage we don't need weighing us down along the way!!! :)
You've totally made my evening with this post and you know I am always here if I can be of help!!!
Onward we go brave sister!!!
Hugs and Love!!!
Ashley :) ❤️🌻
Ashley
I was just about to delete this post as I did not thing it important but I will change the avatar for you sister but what to I'm not sure!
Quote from: coldHeart on July 26, 2017, 07:05:38 PM
Ashley
I was just about to delete this post as I did not thing it important but I will change the avatar for you sister but what to I'm not sure!
You leave this post just where it is my friend!!!!....and pick something happy!!!! :)
A❤️
Sara, I can barely contain my excitement reading your post. I am so glad you found good local people. And we are here. Ashley is just down the street from you (well, it's called Internet street). We really do care about you.
I miss the avatar with your dress from when you went to your first meeting. The awesome dress with cool patterns.
You go girl! Own it.
Sara, I am so happy you have found some friends at group. Community is so important; make more trans friends.
Hmmmm.... An avatar with bats now eh?... Still seems a little dark Sara but, it is better than the previous one so I will let you slide this time sister!!!! :)
Besides!!!... In China they are considered a blessing so we will go with that interpretation!!!...
Bats. ... The Chinese symbols, or characters, for "bat" (蝠fú) are the homonyms of "fortune" (福fú) or "blessings." People tended to paint five bats in paintings to symbolize the "Five Blessings," health, long life, prosperity, love of virtue, and a tranquil, natural death.Apr 13, 2014
Hugs and Much Love!!!
A 😀🌻💗
Sara, your post is very important! :D It's great that you are finding bits of yourself. and bits of feeling happy? I hope so.
Reading your post gave me a big smile. Sometimes just seeing someone els find a way out of their darkness is just what we all need! Don't ever shy away from good news!
Thank you for sharing it with us. :)
Quote from: josie76 on July 26, 2017, 08:15:28 PM
Sara, your post is very important! :D It's great that you are finding bits of yourself. and bits of feeling happy? I hope so.
Reading your post gave me a big smile. Sometimes just seeing someone els find a way out of their darkness is just what we all need! Don't ever shy away from good news!
Thank you for sharing it with us. :)
Wise words Josie!!!... A little sunshine around here can go a lot farther than we realize and touch the lives of people we may never know in a good and positive way!!!! 😀❤️🌻
Quote from: tgirlamc on July 26, 2017, 07:51:33 PM
Hmmmm.... An avatar with bats now eh?
Ashley, this is Sara's way of saying we will go to bat for her. We are all in this together. :)
Quote from: Kendra on July 26, 2017, 11:09:27 PM
Ashley, this is Sara's way of saying we will go to bat for her. We are all in this together. :)
Indeed we will and..Indeed we are 😀💗🌻
Sara,
Sorry I didn't see this until now. You should know by now how I feel about your post. I've told you so many time to go talk to someone, anyone. To quit feeling sorry for yourself and get out there and do something to get help. Haven't I?
And once again you have and with more good results. This is just the kind of help and support you need girl. Don't stop now. I understand times are going to be rough for you and you are going to want to slide back into your old pattern. DON"T you dare do it Sara don't you dare. Just keep looking for help and you will get what you need.
I really like the tone of you post. Keep it up.
Loves ya Sara
Hugs,
Laurie
Sara girl you are beautiful!! I'm not just talking about looks - you are doing beautiful things.
I wish for you to be happy. If you were happier the other way I would wish for you to be that way instead, but clearly that isn't the case. Be patient and be good. Enjoy who you are.
Kendra
Good for you Sara!! Sorry to hear about the HRT delay, but you'll get there! Stay strong!
:icon_hug:
Now that's made me feel better (pi55ed of with a sore eye) , when you get the make over post a pic as your new avatar as I think you will look stunning.Hugs hun
Sara, this sounds so promising. Go for the positive, Girl.
Moni
Sorry Ashley but I must be a Jedi, now I have been touched by the dark side it keeps pulling me in, I will try my hardest to stay on the right track but the seeds of doubt have been sown & already there starting to grow.
Thanks people for the positive remarks.
Sara (cidle)
Quote from: coldHeart on July 28, 2017, 07:09:26 PM
Sorry Ashley but I must be a Jedi, now I have been touched by the dark side it keeps pulling me in, I will try my hardest to stay on the right track but the seeds of doubt have been sown & already there starting to grow.
Thanks people for the positive remarks.
Sara (cidle)
Please keep trying to stay in a good place with this process Sara!!!! ...Let's keep hope alive in our hearts and minds and get you through to the HRT stage here!!!.... Thngs will open up for you and are going to be better and better so hold on sister... If you can't hold on for yourself right now... Hold on for me!!! ❤️
Hugs and Love!!!
Ashley
Quote from: coldHeart on July 28, 2017, 07:09:26 PM
Sorry Ashley but I must be a Jedi, now I have been touched by the dark side it keeps pulling me in, I will try my hardest to stay on the right track but the seeds of doubt have been sown & already there starting to grow.
Thanks people for the positive remarks.
Sara (cidle)
Sara Dear, You are your own worst enemy. You go get a little help by finding and talking with other during which hope springs eternal in you. Then you go and let something get you down and you are off on the brink of destruction.
NEVER EVER GIVE UP HOPE!
Don't do this to yourself Sara, please. When whatever it is that threatens to bring you down comes to calls fight back by getting out of your own head and go tell someone how you are feeling and what is bothering you. Get help girl. Be proactive in your own happiness and seek out others that can kelp you. Doing it IRL will help you more than we can online but ,Honey, we are always here for you. So if you need to talk by all means come talk. PM me if that will help you more. You know I will answer you as soon as I see it is you.
Hugs,
Laurie