So three weeks on hormones and my skin is super soft.
As I thought I would have to look female immediately I started making a real effort on myself, things I neglected for years.
simple things like flossing teeth, conditioning hair, mositurising skin.
well its made me a better looking man and people are noticing it.
Which has put me in a frustrating position.
see I dont have body dysmorphia almost at all.
Now my MIND is right from the drugs I am delighted and I also know that if I continue I will grow breasts and what not.
I think I am just a little freaked out that my male body will (over a long time) change to match my now settled mind.
I dont really know how I feel about having a female body just yet but I also know if I stop the hormones my mind will go crazy again.
I relied on low dose HRT several times over the decades of fighting the trans-beast for that much needed brain reset. I always stopped, long after I could have, because of the inevitable physical affects beginning to manifest.
When I decided I NEEDED to take the beast on for real I went to my go-to helper HRT. Low dose was good. But as I slowly healed from the inside, "More's Law" kicked in and the dosage got upped and I felt even better. The needs of the "Prime Directive", to be a normal(ish) guy faded away as the lifetime accumulation of Shame and Guilt also faded away.
You are probably right that stopping is not an option. It sure never was for me during all of my WTF Am I Doing ??? meltdowns. Even cutting back on the AA after 4 years proved not to be a good idea. Cutting back now is totally out of the question for me as I now live in a body I can be happy in, even with the dangly bits
YIKES sums it up very well
Quote from: MissKairi on July 29, 2017, 07:12:38 AM
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I think I am just a little freaked out that my male body will (over a long time) change to match my now settled mind.
I dont really know how I feel about having a female body just yet but I also know if I stop the hormones my mind will go crazy again.
I'm feeling it too. It will be four weeks on T this coming Monday and so much has already changed, well at least in the voice department and fat loss from those damned and so-called love handles. For me it's really the voice that I won't be able to hide away. It's all a bit exciting and scary at the same time. There is absolutely no going back and I have no desire to do so. It's full steam ahead!
Softer skin, eh? Hmmm... I remember my mother constantly exhorting my brothers to put sunscreen on their faces and exposed parts of their bodies to protect against the harsh Australian sun. They did ( we always did what our mother commanded ;D) and they do have pretty good looking skin compared to other men their age; baby faces both of them :D
I find that coconut oil ( the stuff used for cooking and generally available in supermarkets) is an excellent moisturiser. Give it a try.